Queen of Swords

I didn't write about Lucius's presence at the workshop, even though he was the one who invited me, paid my fee, and drove, because during the workshop itself we both had very separate experiences. It was nice to have him there, however, and nice to be able to share with him afterward.

Sometime on the way home or during the time he lingered in my living room afterward, he told me that I had been smiling a lot during the workshop and "it was quite lovely."

It's been a long time since I've smiled regularly. Honestly, I hadn't been aware of smiling during the evening, but it was nice to know that I had been.

And it was nice to have someone notice and care and comment.

This whole coming-out-of-the-underworld process is picking up serious momentum since the man I'm referring to as Lucius came into my life. (See my Dear Powers That Be entry of a week or so ago.)

Ereshkigal came to me this morning and told me I have a new initiation coming. This is the first time I've been told something like this by a deity rather than having a teacher inform me or stumbling into and through one and not recognizing it until it was over.

The thing is: what I'm being told is not like anything I would have expected from Her. Which either means I'm not hearing clearly or I am hearing clearly because this is not something I would have come up with on my own. Not from Her anyway.

I'm doing discernment around the message, and will be talking to my teacher as soon as we can schedule a phone call. It feels right in my gut but I want to be sure.

I'm very excited about this, and rather overwhelmed, but in a good way.