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After a very long time of pain, inertia, and frustration, I'm starting to see sudden movement in several places in my life, including a nice big income tax return just as my savings was starting to get perilously low, not one but two strong leads on jobs (a second interview on one and a call from a friend on another), new sacred sexuality energy in my life, creative work on the Ereshkigal devotional. . . even doing better helping Wolfling focus and follow through on her homework.

And the timing corresponds pretty strongly to my starting the Malkuth meditations in my Tree of Life studies.

Malkuth is the physical world, not just in the "pentacles" sense of body/house/job/money, but the entirety of the plane of physical existence. Any magical working (or any creative endeavor) begun or worked in the other planes must come into existence in (or at least have its energy come down the planes to impact in) Malkuth for it to be meaningful on the human level.

It feels as if the energy of my meditation is kick-starting several other areas of my life.

Now to keep focused and keep the meditation going in a consistent way as I enjoy/pursue all the unfolding goodness. . . !
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From this morning's altar time:

I am not just sexual desire. I am the desire that is at the root of all fertility and growth -- even creative fertility.

Inanna's stories portray her as having an intense lust for more. She won the me from Father Enki by getting him drunk and flattering him. She dared the forbidden journey to the Underworld. It could be seen that even her desire for the human kings, celebrated in the hieros gamos texts, is indicative of her unwillingness to be limited only to divine partners. She was never content with just what she had.

This also, of course, got her into trouble, which is one reason why I find it helpful to balance her energies with those of Ereshkigal, who is about maintaining boundaries.

But as I struggle to discern the appropriate expression of my personal sexuality at this time, it's very helpful to get back in touch with Inanna's indiscriminate desire, desire that is not limited to the sexually erotic.

Simple discontent saps our joy, makes us feel helpless and bitter, bogs us down. Divine discontent spurs us to become more. For me, Inanna is the personification of divine discontent. She is the passionate desire to have and to do and to be more than what we are now.
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