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A Lesson About Fatigue
Jun. 7th, 2008 07:19 amOne of the things I'm working on is being consistent with my practices. My evening ritual is relatively brief in its essentials, and I'm finally starting to understand the importance -- and reap the benefits of -- consistency.
The last two nights I've started later than usual and felt tired beyond the usual measure. Both times, I did an internal check about whether or not I really needed to do my practices, and both times I got back a firm yes. So I did.
I've learned that while it is never okay to be sloppy, thoughtless, or otherwise careless about my practices, they also do not have to be done perfectly all the time. Just showing up and applying focus, presence, and firm intent can be enough.
Because, totally aside from the discipline of it, and putting yet another layer of energy and another repetition into the cycle of transformation, there are aspects of what happens that have little or nothing to do with me.
Both of the last two nights I had significant encounters with deities. They were quiet and relatively brief, but important information was given or exchanged. And those encounters would not have happened if I had not made the effort to show up and Do The Work.
The last two nights I've started later than usual and felt tired beyond the usual measure. Both times, I did an internal check about whether or not I really needed to do my practices, and both times I got back a firm yes. So I did.
I've learned that while it is never okay to be sloppy, thoughtless, or otherwise careless about my practices, they also do not have to be done perfectly all the time. Just showing up and applying focus, presence, and firm intent can be enough.
Because, totally aside from the discipline of it, and putting yet another layer of energy and another repetition into the cycle of transformation, there are aspects of what happens that have little or nothing to do with me.
Both of the last two nights I had significant encounters with deities. They were quiet and relatively brief, but important information was given or exchanged. And those encounters would not have happened if I had not made the effort to show up and Do The Work.
