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Last Night, I Danced
Feb. 9th, 2007 05:53 amYou have to understand: this is a big deal.
One of the things that has been on my wistful to-do list (the list of things that I think would be wonderful, but I have never made enough of a priority to do more than stick my toe into, if that) is bellydancing. A year or so ago I went to a class, but despite![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
pathdancer's companionship and encouragement, I felt too awkward and embarrassed by my body and lack of looseness/control over my midsection to be comfortable in a room full of women who had not just the moves but the clothes as well. There were some lovely moments, but in the end, I just was not comfortable.
So two nights ago, as part of my current "Ultimate" plan, I took out the DVD set "Sacred Bellydance" (which I bought months ago) and started working with it. And it was hard. Hip circles just don't work well when you're used to holding yourself straight and tucked, and not accentuate that part of yourself. And talk about Water! Jehane's whole body flowed and rippled as if she had no bones at all.
A Queen of Swords beginning to bellydance is a somewhat absurd creature: all stiffness and pointy joints.
So I put away the DVD and took out my S-Factor Workout book, which starts with a long series of stretches and moves designed to loosen and release the hips and pelvic region, emphasizing circles and sensuality. And while I was doing Reverse Spinal Rolls something clicked in the back of my brain, and I stopped focusing on "doing it right" and instead just concentrated on making a circle with my head, and feeling the circle, and doing it with my spine and not my shoulders.
Suddenly I was moving freely, almost ecstatically. Everything shifted into another key.
I stretched for another ten minutes or so, and still had ten minutes on my workout time, so I put on a marvelous piece called "Lionheart" by Angels of Venice, and I closed my eyes and started to dance. I didn't worry about 'right moves' or how I looked (which is why I had to keep my eyes closed), or anything else. I released my body to follow the music.
I danced in a way I don't think I've ever danced before without a couple of drinks in me. And it felt great.
I'm going to take this slowly, and I'm not going to worry about "right." I'm going to use the exercises to get my body moving, open up and stretch these muscles (the mental/emotional as well as the physical) and when I feel comfortable with my body and with my own movement, then maybe I'll take a class again. Yes, I may have to 'unlearn' some technique -- but that's better than being too stiff and self-conscious to learn in the first place.
One of the things that has been on my wistful to-do list (the list of things that I think would be wonderful, but I have never made enough of a priority to do more than stick my toe into, if that) is bellydancing. A year or so ago I went to a class, but despite
pathdancer's companionship and encouragement, I felt too awkward and embarrassed by my body and lack of looseness/control over my midsection to be comfortable in a room full of women who had not just the moves but the clothes as well. There were some lovely moments, but in the end, I just was not comfortable. So two nights ago, as part of my current "Ultimate" plan, I took out the DVD set "Sacred Bellydance" (which I bought months ago) and started working with it. And it was hard. Hip circles just don't work well when you're used to holding yourself straight and tucked, and not accentuate that part of yourself. And talk about Water! Jehane's whole body flowed and rippled as if she had no bones at all.
A Queen of Swords beginning to bellydance is a somewhat absurd creature: all stiffness and pointy joints.
So I put away the DVD and took out my S-Factor Workout book, which starts with a long series of stretches and moves designed to loosen and release the hips and pelvic region, emphasizing circles and sensuality. And while I was doing Reverse Spinal Rolls something clicked in the back of my brain, and I stopped focusing on "doing it right" and instead just concentrated on making a circle with my head, and feeling the circle, and doing it with my spine and not my shoulders.
Suddenly I was moving freely, almost ecstatically. Everything shifted into another key.
I stretched for another ten minutes or so, and still had ten minutes on my workout time, so I put on a marvelous piece called "Lionheart" by Angels of Venice, and I closed my eyes and started to dance. I didn't worry about 'right moves' or how I looked (which is why I had to keep my eyes closed), or anything else. I released my body to follow the music.
I danced in a way I don't think I've ever danced before without a couple of drinks in me. And it felt great.
I'm going to take this slowly, and I'm not going to worry about "right." I'm going to use the exercises to get my body moving, open up and stretch these muscles (the mental/emotional as well as the physical) and when I feel comfortable with my body and with my own movement, then maybe I'll take a class again. Yes, I may have to 'unlearn' some technique -- but that's better than being too stiff and self-conscious to learn in the first place.
