Persistence

[qos]

So much in my life has come easily to me, especially in the area of study. Today it has been made very clear to me that this path will demand persistence.

Sunday is the day I have dedicated to Isis, and when I sought an audience with her today, her primary message was that it will be necessary for me to prove my worthiness to progress in this training. My good intentions are not in doubt, nor is my heart -- but certain gifts are not to be had simply for the wanting or the showing up. And although She did say so directly, I suspect that some gifts can not be truly owned without persistent work, because that's just the nature of things.

I think I wrote here before that my first specific assigned task has been to seek out a particular gate and look through it. I've had all kinds of adventures while trying to complete the assignment -- but have yet to actually look through the gate more than once. And the one time I managed that, I made a couple of mistakes.

So both yesterday and today I attempted the gate again, with mixed success. I still haven't looked through it, but today I got closer than ever before. I'm not sure why I haven't been able to do this, when I can see so many other things in the inner world clearly -- and Isis has smilingly declined to tell my teacher what the block is. It's something I get to figure out and overcome for myself.

And -- somewhat to my surprise -- I'm finding that that's a good feeling.

Comments

[makhsihed.livejournal.com]

Sounds like Aset/Isis all right...

Did you get my email with the Oracle in it? Not sure if it went through. (Or if it made any sense, heh.)

[shadowandstar.livejournal.com]

Still working on making sense of it. ;-)

I appreciate the affirmation of "sounds like Aset/Isis." Even though I'm not worried about working outside of her formal/organized tradition, it's reassuring when others say "Yes, that matches my experience."