Inventory Status Report

[qos]

It's 10 pages long, although the last three pages are an extensive table of To-Do's with emotional reactions, perspective checks, and prioritization. Not all of them are immediate/urgent. A few are fundamental. Some are not urgent in themselves but are important stepping stones to goals or desired states. Some are "a nice idea for an as-yet undetermined time in the future." Sorting out which is which -- and keeping track of it -- is critical.

It's no wonder I feel so frustrated and overwhelmed so often. There’s so much I want to do, so much I think about doing, and it’s impossible to accomplish it all at once. And without organization and discipline nothing gets accomplished. So I feel frustrated and overwhelmed, which means I’m less likely to do anything. . . It's a quick slide down into a vicious circle.

There's so much, and it's all interconnected.

One thing: Spirit is fundamental to all else.
Without that, my life is empty, without meaning.
Everything else hinges on faithfulness to my practices.
Without it, without a deep, consistent connection to Spirit, I'm a shell going through the motions of "making a living" to meet my responsibilties. No joy. No satisfaction.

For my life as a whole, gaps and priorities have been identified, and I've had some additional important insights which I hope will be the springboard for breakthroughs.

More later. . . .

I have to be sure that both Wolfling and I are ready for the new school schedule tomorrow morning.

Comments

[blessed-harlot.livejournal.com]

I so admire your great skill at this kind of clarity.

Also, your deep intertwining of connection to Spirit and faithfulness to your practices has me reflecting on what embodies Spirit the most for me, what elements are most vital to me staying connected with it.

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you.
I'd enjoy talking more about what elements are most vital to you for staying connected.