Intimacy Dream

I met my first boyfriend when we were in the 8th grade, although we did not begin dating until the spring of our sophomore year of high school. Our relationship was rather tempestuous, with several rounds of being together and breaking up that continued into our college years. What was special about him, however, was that we managed to remain best friends even during most of the times we were not together romantically, and he was one of the people who helped me escape from the emotionally abusive relationship I was in just after I graduated from college. We became estranged shortly after Wolfling was born, but reconciled last year. He has always been an important figure in my life.

I do not experience any romantic or sexual chemistry with him anymore, but a few times during the past couple of years I've dreamed about the two of us being intimate again. We talked on the phone yesterday evening, and last night I had one of those dreams -- and it felt more self-conscious than usual.

( Cut for those who don't care about other peoples' dreams )

Beyond that exchange, it was another night of dreams involving moving -- often in ways that violated normal traffic rules -- and searching, surrounded by figures from my life. So far, I've never found whatever it was in the dream I was looking for.

I'm Happy, Are You?

My current guilty pleasure:

http://flipnote.hatena.com/54FECA601E18C8D2@DSi/movie/18C8D2_093180D700745_003


It's about 30 seconds worth of video.