Last night was hard. I was restless, skittish, and couldn't feel LM near me. When I sent my consciousness out to find him, I had the sense he was in a small, dark, cave-like space. When I was able to communicate with him, he assured me that he was fine. I got the sense that he was working on some task and not able to come to me. So I withdrew and settled down to sleep.
This morning we were quietly snuggling on the couch after my practice, when all of the sudden I felt his presence fade away.
This has happened a couple of times in the past: I'll be engaged with him, either within a full-scale inner journey or in a ritual, and all of the sudden something happens that takes him away from me -- and getting him back is not a simple matter of focusing my will.
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