Hoping for Some Confirmation or Clues With a Possible UPG

[qos]

I had a very startling inner world experience the other night which may have been a past life memory or something built on a resonance, and I wanted to find out if any of what I experienced is corroborated by any lore that my friends may know or any personal gnosis. It may also have been simply a potent experience that has no specific connection to a past life, but wove together current influences into a setting based on the past.

For reasons I'm not going to go into here, I had invoked Tiwaz to help me go within and get in touch with a true part of my past life history in which I had blessed a particular warrior before he went into battle. What I experienced was unlike anything I've ever imagined, written fiction about, or had come up in any kind of inner world expeirence.

This is what I wrote in my journal:

[I didn't frame a deliberate intention, but the scene took place outdoors at night, next to a fire.]

As I focused on him, and what I wanted/needed to do to bless and protect him, I found a large drum and beater in my hands. I was chanting. I don't know what the words were or what they meant, but they were harsh and shrieking. As I settled further into the vision, I had the sudden conviction that I was channeling Crow -- Battlecrow, to be exact. I was dressed in black, and I was invoking Crow's spirit onto the warrior to protect him (to not be chosen as food), and to guide his spear with swift and accurate flight, and to give him the power to choose the slain: his enemies. As I looked at myself from the outside, I saw Crow in my eyes, and felt myself very close to the Morrigan -- or some kindred deity. I was in deep communion with the Queen of Battles. I jumped and danced wildly, flapping my arms like wings and screaming/cawing incomprehensible words.

The thing is that when I frist went into the vision, I very specifically was going to Northern location. Even within my vision I was startled by the sense of being in touch with someone like the Morrigan, because I didn't connect her to where I was (nor do I have any personal tie to her). In fact, I had explicitly asked Tiwaz to help me touch something real. The images of the spear reminded me of Odin -- someone I have encountered only briefly but potently in this life -- but I kept feeling feminine energy. I asked about Freya while I was within the vision, but that wasn't right either.

I'm not attached to this connecting with anything real, but I am very curious if it matches anything anyone else knows about. . .

Comments

[morgwensraven.livejournal.com]

just my two pence.. but well there was cross cultural influences between the two groups. Just from my own experience.. I know that there are roads that cross back and forth between northern practice and the Isles. I'm just starting to study the mixture.. we can discuss this a bit later. it's hard to put into words.

[nicanthiel.livejournal.com]

There are strong connections between many of the Celtic deities and the Germanic Vanir, so you might have experienced that. Catubodua comes to mind as the closest link.

[alfrecht.livejournal.com]

Cathubodua would have been my first guess as well...Definitiely Gaulish, and there was a lot of direct contact between the Gauls and the Germanic peoples, particularly in the times when the Cathubodua altar was dedicated.

Then, of course that leads to the Irish cognate, Bodb Catha, which leads thence to An Morrígan, but anyway...

[shadowandstar.livejournal.com]

So this is the point where I mention that several months ago during a conversation with a follower of the Morrigan, Babh shoved her aside so she could talk with me directly. No explanation and no specific message to give, just. . . general insights on my situation at the time.

I confess I had forgotten the incident until I shared this dream with that friend and she reminded me that Babh had been very insistent on speaking with me. . .

[alfrecht.livejournal.com]

There is a large degree of uncertainty--within the texts themselves--as to whether or not Badb and An Morrígan are separate beings, if the former is one of a collective known as the latter, or what...Various local traditions might differ on the possible answer to this question, and this is very likely reflected in the texts as they have come down to us. An Morrígan does sometimes turn into a raven or scald crow; and yet, in the most famous shape-shifting incident in which she is involved, she becomes a red heifer, a glas she-wolf, and an eel, with no avian forms whatsoever taking part. Badb Catha, however, is never anything but a crow/raven, it seems...

So, yes, this all makes a great deal of sense.

[shades-of-nyx.livejournal.com]

I was going to discuss the components of the Goddess we call "the Morrigan", but you already have a discussion of Babh, which is where I was headed.
"Battle Crow" gets me to Babh who I see as "part of" Morrigan..

[watcher457.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure, but if it was Northern and battle... the Valkyries?

[shadowandstar.livejournal.com]

Hmmm. . . Hadn't thought about that.

I never thought about what kind of energy a Valkyrie would have. . .

That doesn't feel right, but it's certainly worth some reflection.

Thanks.