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qosI did my full practices last night, as well as a deep meditation with LM and the goddesses.
As I was aligning myself with the goddesses I apologized for my recent slackness. I was reassured that yes, things have been unusual recently, and they don't expect perfection. Ereshkigal told me that She was satisfied that when She did tap me, I responded promptly. Of course, it's always better to not fall of the practice wagon and need that tap in the first place, but it's also nice to be accepted as human.
I also revised my practice log for the week: removing the Tree of Life notebook line item (finished on the way to P-con), added "Morning Alignment" (tuning in to the goddesses each morning, something I haven't done before), and bolding "Devotional Writing" -- as I really need to do some serious work on the Ereshkigal Devotional. I should add that the "devotional" refers not just to the project but to the pure act of writing for/with Herself, as a tool for deepening that connection. I use the written word to connect deeply with myself and with other people. I believe I can also use it to connect more deeply with Her -- and Inanna.
Last night I also thanked Inanna for the influx of erotic energy into my life and the healing that has accompanied it. I thanked for her part in my ordination, and told her that I'm looking forward to getting to know her more deeply again.
I started my meditation by aligning myself with LM and my three patrons: Ereshkigal, Inanna and Tiwaz (who had also forged a deeper connection with me recently -- more about which later). It was an awesome and deeply gratifying experience to feel them close to me, and in particular to be more deeply aware of Tiwaz's protection of my home. At first I was feeling kind of amazed at the thought of them coming when I called -- but I was informed, with one of Ereshkigal's slightly less edged smiles, that it's the other way around: they are always present, always desirous of my company and attention (although not as supplicants, of course!). It is I who respond to their call.
As I was aligning myself with the goddesses I apologized for my recent slackness. I was reassured that yes, things have been unusual recently, and they don't expect perfection. Ereshkigal told me that She was satisfied that when She did tap me, I responded promptly. Of course, it's always better to not fall of the practice wagon and need that tap in the first place, but it's also nice to be accepted as human.
I also revised my practice log for the week: removing the Tree of Life notebook line item (finished on the way to P-con), added "Morning Alignment" (tuning in to the goddesses each morning, something I haven't done before), and bolding "Devotional Writing" -- as I really need to do some serious work on the Ereshkigal Devotional. I should add that the "devotional" refers not just to the project but to the pure act of writing for/with Herself, as a tool for deepening that connection. I use the written word to connect deeply with myself and with other people. I believe I can also use it to connect more deeply with Her -- and Inanna.
Last night I also thanked Inanna for the influx of erotic energy into my life and the healing that has accompanied it. I thanked for her part in my ordination, and told her that I'm looking forward to getting to know her more deeply again.
I started my meditation by aligning myself with LM and my three patrons: Ereshkigal, Inanna and Tiwaz (who had also forged a deeper connection with me recently -- more about which later). It was an awesome and deeply gratifying experience to feel them close to me, and in particular to be more deeply aware of Tiwaz's protection of my home. At first I was feeling kind of amazed at the thought of them coming when I called -- but I was informed, with one of Ereshkigal's slightly less edged smiles, that it's the other way around: they are always present, always desirous of my company and attention (although not as supplicants, of course!). It is I who respond to their call.
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Date: 2009-02-24 05:08 pm (UTC)they are always present, always desirous of my company and attention (although not as supplicants, of course!). It is I who respond to their call.
yes. i strongly feel this. sometimes i wish it was just easier to hear that call, but that's a practice thing. really, people in general probably hear the call, but ignore it or say it's something else.