Queen of Swords

Yes, I'm still alive. . . !

30 minutes ago I received an email from the Communications Director at my old work site letting me know that the Communication Consultant job has finally been posted on our internal jobs website. Apparently there are several people interested, but she said that I'm a competitive candidate. I responded the moment I saw the email, telling her I would apply this weekend.

Then I had a minor panic attack because I want so very badly to NOT BE AN ADMIN ANYMORE. I WANT TO WRITE. And I SPENT A LOT OF MONEY TO EARN AN MS IN HEALTH COMMUNICATION SO I *WOULD* BE COMPETITIVE FOR A JOB LIKE THIS. But I am also scared to death of the risk of the change, and maybe not actually being good enough. Or maybe not actually enjoying the position. Or taking on a lot more stress than my current job involves.

But there's also the fact that the mid-point of this salary band is $30K more than I am making now.
That's worth a lot of increased stress.

And I would be able to work from home a lot. 

So please light some candles for me this weekend as I work on updating my profile.


Also: on Saturday I presented a two hour workshop on Sacred Sexuality & Kink 101. It was the first time I presented without being sponsored, endorsed, or otherwise had the stamp of approval by some external authority. So that was huge. I had 11 or 12 people attend, and received $108 in my donation jar. Feedback was excellent. 

But what boggled me. . . and what I want to write more about later. . . is that the significant majority of the participants had no personal spiritual life or experience to speak of. They went out of their way to attend a workshop on sacred sexuality without having a clear understanding in their own mind of what the sacred is, or any real relationship with it. And no one seemed able or willing to articulate why they wanted to learn about sacred sex and kink if the sacred didn't have any particular meaning elsewhere in their lives.

I understand that to a lot of people "sacred sex" means "ecstatic orgasms" -- and that's fine, but that's not what my session was about, and I was up-front about that in my description. 

Now I want to create a Spirituality 101 class for people who are interested in learning about how to engage with The More, but don't have the background or vocabulary or context to know how to begin. 

I've created a new community: me_and_my_tarot to run the class, which will be easier, I think, than spreading the lessons through my journal. It also removes being a friend to my journal as a restriction.

If you would like to join the class, please go to me_and_my_tarot and request membership. (Membership will be closed, and all posts will be friends locked to members of the community.)

I hope to have the first post up within the week.

Over the past few days my commute has been taken up with thoughts of how I would teach a "Get to Know Your Tarot Deck" class, including a booklet that each participant would gradually complete, giving her an ongoing reference tool.

This is one of those areas where I tend to take my own knowledge for granted. There are a lot of great books about tarot out there, but how many people in my area would enjoy spending 2-3 hours in a class that's focused specifically on their own deck and their own perspective? One that doesn't give them pat meanings or patterns to memorize and follow, but tools for deepening their individual understanding of any deck they use?