What I Believe

[qos]

I believe that however deep my grief at his passing, when Lohain died to his body a year ago this morning, he passed into a life far richer than this one.

I believe that he escaped a prison and took up a kind of work he was Called to do but was seldom able to do here.

I believe he continues to exist as himself, continues to love me as I love him, and to grieve for our separation as I do.

And I believe that when my own time comes to pass through the veil, he will be waiting for me with an outstretched hand, and as soon as I am across he will kiss me again the way he did that very first time.

And after that, if the gods want us to part again before several centuries have passed, they're going to need to have a damn good reason.

Comments

[veronica-milvus.livejournal.com]

I've been reading all your posts from the last few days and the story is so sad. It seems that Lohain was taken away from you just as everything was becoming so special. You are brave to talk about it here, the way you are, I am sure it is the best thing to do. And this past year you have been very strong.

Wishing you much love and healing.
V

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much.

I've been grateful to have the loving -- and patient -- support of this community over the past year. Being able to write about it has given me an outlet for my pain rather than keeping it bottled up inside me or coming out only in tears.

[labelleizzy.livejournal.com]

thank you for sharing. These are beautiful images, though sad.
(though I love your fierceness in the last line!)

*hug*

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you.
*hugs

(And I love this icon!)

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Yes. I believe the same things. Those we lose are never really lost. There's a reason why Lohain and you only came together for such a brief time in this life- and someday you'll be together again and learn what it is.

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Writing about such beliefs is harder than anything else, and I very much appreciate the affirmation.

I don't usually believe that any individual's death is planned or purposed by a higher power for a greater good, but maybe I'll find out that I'm wrong. In any case, I do appreciate the encouragement of your words.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

This is how it works, I think-

We have partnerships that continue for life after life. In some lives our contact with our primary partners will be long-term and in others fleeting. I don't think this is imposed on us by a higher power. I believe we get guidance, but that the final choice is always ours. Sometimes- weird though it may seem from a worldly perspective- we choose the pain of temporary separation.

Have you come across Michael Newton's books on Life between Lives? I read them a few years ago- at my daughter's suggestion- and they confirmed what I found I already, instinctively, believed.

[qos.livejournal.com]

Michael Newton sounds vaguely familiar. I may have read his material -- or someone else on the same theme -- years ago.

To be honest, until Lohain's death I hadn't paid much attention to afterlife questions for many years. The issues seemed impossible to deal with meaningfully, given the lack of evidence. Now, I'm aware that many people report different kinds of ongoing contact -- including myself -- so my perspective has changed a bit.

Thanks for sharing your perspective.

[elevengirl.livejournal.com]

This, and the other things you've posted today, are rich and beautiful. ::Hugs::

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'm honored and comforted by having others take the time to read and respond with such caring affirmations.

[iswari.livejournal.com]

Much love to you.

[qos.livejournal.com]

And to you.
Thank you.

[silverhawkdruid.livejournal.com]

Hugs. Just.... hugs... to you both.

[qos.livejournal.com]

*hugs back

Thank you!