Lonely

[qos]

I'm lonely -- which is not a state that is particularly familiar to me.

For most of my life I've been content to have a limited social life. As an introvert, I need solitude and quiet to recharge.

I suspect that having L&L around so much last year recalibrated my tolerances. I'm still an introvert, but I'm feeling the need for more direct connection with others.

Instead I'm feeling very isolated. I moved closer to my parents for their and my daughter's sake, but that's put me even farther away from the few close friends I have.

And the damn pool noise means that even my quiet/alone time is less satisfactory. It's hard to do creative or spiritual work with the shrieks and squeals coming from the pool for hours at a time.

*sigh
End of whinging

Comments

[athenian-abroad.livejournal.com]

*waves*

[qos.livejournal.com]

*smiles and waves back

Heaven: "where all that is not silence is music"

[wordweaverlynn.livejournal.com]

If to be left were to be left alone,
And lock the door and find one's self again—
Drag forth and dust Penates of one's own
That in a corner all too long have lain;
Read Brahms, read Chaucer, set the chessmen out
In classic problem, stretch the shrunken mind
Back to its stature on the rack of thought—
Loss might be said to leave its boon behind.
But fruitless conference and the interchange
With callow wits of bearded cons and pros
Enlist the neutral daylight, and derange
A will too sick to battle for repose.
Neither with you nor with myself, I spend
Loud days that have no meaning and no end.

--Edna St. Vincent Millay

Re: Heaven: "where all that is not silence is music"

[qos.livejournal.com]

This is perfect.
Thank you so very much.

Sister-Friend

[a-belletrist.livejournal.com]

Farther in distance, maybe, but not farther in heart or mind.

:: generous, warm, connecting hugs ::

Re: Sister-Friend

[qos.livejournal.com]

*hugs
I especiallly miss you. . .

[gothic-coop.livejournal.com]

You know you could always call and have me come over.

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Coop.

[professor-mom.livejournal.com]

I tried to give you a jingle both last night and tonight, but there was no answer. I'm hoping you're out doing something particularly fun!

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the calls. Both time I'd had my phone put away. It sounds perverse to have done that while writing about loneliness, but I'd found a good groove for writing and didn't want to be distracted.

But I appreciate you caring enough to call!

[bookchick.livejournal.com]

::another hug::