Boundaries & Tiredness

[qos]

It's been a rough week.

It was a lousy commute.
It's 6:50pm and I'm just now getting home.

I do not like coming into my home to find a strange man in my kitchen putting security sensors up on my walls without having been informed ahead of time.

I do not like finding the dregs of my daughter's bowl of cereal sitting next to my computer.

I am not looking forward to taking the daughter out shopping this evening, but my parents' 50th anniversary party is tomorrow and she needs something nice to wear and the expedition earlier this week was unsuccessful. There are also Father's Day cards to be purchased, since we'll be celebrating with my family tomorrow night after the anniversary party.

I had been looking forward to the party, since a lot of old and dear friends of the family will be there, but now what I want most to do is run away to a hotel room for the weekend and be alone and continue to process and journal and rest.

Tomorrow after the party my daughter and I will go look at the duplex near my office. The most desired move-to location called today to say they finally had openings, but they are two bedroom units near the pool with rent of $1,900/month -- and that's with a year's lease. No. I'm not going to do that.

I don't want to be a grownup tonight, much less the grownup.
I don't want a stranger poking around my house while I feel like this.
I can't even relax now that I'm home.

I'm all raw nerve endings right now and I have no shelter.

Comments

[seauleja.livejournal.com]

Hey, I'm sorry you're having a crappy day and loathing the upcoming events more than you'd like to. Wish I could email you the "stand-in insta-adult" for the weekend.

I didn't think they had rents like that outside the SF bay area. Seriously--for a two bedroom?! We just moved into a 4 bedroom house for $1800 a month. Maybe you should move here!!! :o)

So why was the stranger there? Did the upstairs people order him? Coming home to that is definitely no good, even in the best of mindsets.

I had a funny (funny-strange) image of cutting potatoes in half and applying them to your nerve endings. Apparently potatoes seem particularly comforting and grounding to me at the moment. So I wish you potatoes.

[qos.livejournal.com]

The apartment is pretty steep -- of course, housing prices here are outrageous to begin with, and this place has lots of really great amenities. But that's still too much.

The stranger was there to install a new security system. The upstairs people ordered him up -- and they should have let me know he was going to be in my space.

Tater for nerve endings???
Can't say I understand, but you made me smile.
Thank you.

[seauleja.livejournal.com]

I can't say I understand either! But then I know sometimes understanding is completely overrated.

But smiling is good. :o)

[bookchick.livejournal.com]

Grr on the security guy.

Sending good thoughts on your various expeditions this weekend. Fingers crossed all goes well. And also sending hugs that don't rub your nerve endings wrong.

Take care.

[iswari.livejournal.com]

It must be so difficult to be responsible for another person in the midst of your own grief.

Thinking of you...

[oakmouse]

I wish I'd seen this last night, to send comforting energy when it was needed. Oh well --- sending some now in the hopes it will help make this day better.

[wlotus.livejournal.com]

I hope the rest of the weekend is much better.

[blessed-harlot.livejournal.com]

I'm definitely on board with this insta-adult stand in, hoo boy.

I'm thinking of you lots, and sending virtual hot tea and quietness.

Family obligations

[amqu.livejournal.com]

I hope your visit with your parents went okay. But after it's over you can go home, hunker down, and hide under the covers.