Sunday Afternoon

[qos]

Let's see. . . what's been happening lately. . . ??

I've cleaned off my desk in the yellow room -- the one I can't remember ever actually working at. I've been more and more aware that I really need that room as a sanctuary, where I can close the door and be silent to do deep writing, meditate, or etc. Now I need to figure out how to energize that space to make it come alive the way my living room does. It's always been a sinkhole energetically.

Speaking of energy, I'm also becoming more and more aware of my own energy, and being conscious of energy quality and flow, through my discussions with _storyteller_ and uncrowned_king, which in turn is building on ideas and concepts I've been picking up from queenofhalves over the years.

After several weeks of contemplation in the Black Box of my subconscious, I've decided that I'm not going to return to seminary in the fall. After all the angst about getting re-admitted, I realized that one thing has not changed since Spring a year ago: I still feel that what I need most to do right now is cultivate my own authority, speak my own truth and write my own words, not listen to or read the words of others. This doesn't mean I'm shutting myself off from the wisdom of others, just that I'm not going to dedicate huge amounts of time, energy and money into going to school. I could better use that time and energy in developing my own spiritual direction practice.

_storyteller_ is moving to an apartment within half a mile of my home at the end of September.

My sister southernselkie is getting married at the end of October, which is a cause for rejoicing. Taking advantage of the fact that the wedding will be held near one of my personal sacred places, I will be renting a beachfront cabin at my favorite vacation place with _storyteller_ for the night before and night of the wedding, which should make for a very special weekend.

I have not been able to maintain a habit of exercise, but keep dragging myself back at odd intervals. The whole spectrum of "Pentacles Issues" continues to elude me: fitness, eating, hearthcare. I think, however, that I'm getting a bit better at finances.

My day job continues pretty much as normal. I'm working as the project manager representing my division on an important enterprise-wide initiative, and have received a couple of kudos from the enterprise lead, which is nice. Hopefully this will lead to bigger and better things. Had an episode with Miss V last week that left me with a stomach ache, but a day or two later spoke with her on the same topic and found myself with a win-win solution.

The Daughter starts fifth grade in a week and a half. Zoinks!

All has been relatively quiet upstairs. It doesn't look like anyone will be moving out, but so long as my borders are respected, how they choose to resolve their issues is no concern of mine.

And that's all the news that's fit to share in a public post. ;-)

Comments

Yellow Room

[revpanthera.livejournal.com]

... try giving it a grounding cord of its own. Grab all 4 corners and Whooooosh! ground it and own it! Does that make sense?

Re: Yellow Room

[qos.livejournal.com]

Does that make sense?

Not as much as I'd like. . . .

I think I get the general idea, but for all my book learnin' I really haven't done a lot of actual magical/energy work. I don't know how to "grab all 4 corners" nor how to "give it a grounding cord."

I can grasp the general idea, I think, but my practical knowledge can't supply the details.

Re: Yellow Room

[revpanthera.livejournal.com]

Ok, let's try this. It's good you're at least familiar with grounding. As a_belletrist mentioned, intention is a good thing. I see connecting the bottom 4 corners of the room and hooking them up to a grounding cord. Now, you can imagine that grounding cord as anything you like ... roots of a tree, string, colored lights, garden hose, whatever strikes your fancy ... just make it wide enough so the energy of the room can release down it ... when I see a grounding cord on release it always brings to mind one of those old flush toilets that had the water on the top ... pull the chain and whooooshhh old energy away :)

Now that was long and drawn out ... it can be as easy as just imagining the room with a grounding cord and your intention that it just release old/unwanted/unneeded energy. Your imagination and intention will do the work and you don't really have to work out the details of how it will work ... it just will :)

Did I do better this time?

Re: Yellow Room

[qos.livejournal.com]

That helps a lot. Thank you.

One of the most helpful thing was to remind me that in cases like this, the details of "how" -- which a Queen of Swords always wants -- matter far less than intention. If my intention is clear and I open up, my intuition supplies what I need.

When I can remember that, I do fine most of the time.
But I do need to be reminded.

[a-belletrist.livejournal.com]

Energy work, I've found, is a matter of listening to intuition. What does the yellow room ask to have? What does it want to get rid of? What does it say when you ask "What do you need for it to be a perfect sanctuary?"

It may just need a good smudging ... herbal smoke and intent clear up a good deal.

I liked what you wrote about taking the time to write, speak, and cultivate your own words, truth and authority. How exciting that will be! Energizing and empowering, too.

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the reminder to listen with intuition. I actually know that, but have a hard time remembering. It's a Queen of Swords blind spot, I'm afraid.

And thanks for the affirmation about my plans. Now I need to combine intention and will with courage and put myself out there. It's an ongoing struggle -- and as I type that, I realize that I need to change my mindset and language. I'm sabotaging myself with my perceptions. It's going to be a marvelous adventure, an exciting time of enjoying myself and sharing my gifts through my newly-found power.

[a-belletrist.livejournal.com]

I'm not terribly good at remembering to listen to intuition, I'll admit. It's something that I'm trying to get better at ... listening with heart and soul and not just head. A mix would be nice.

If it helps at all, remember that the Universe gave you this path to walk -- opened it right up for you, and whatever happens while you walk it will be blessed.

[preacha.livejournal.com]

Are Storyteller & his partner both moving? Did I miss something? This sounds exciting.

*Off to read previous posts until baby wakes up*

[qos.livejournal.com]

They have separated.

They are both LJ friends, and I haven't posted anything about it until now, and I'm going to leave it at this.

It was okay for you to ask, of course.
It was going to come up eventually.

[vsmallgoddess.livejournal.com]

I might ask to be filtered out of stuff involving _storyteller_ for a while, but I'm not sure. I'm handling things pretty well, just don't like hearing about His plans from sombody else, even if it is you. Anyway, wanted to keep you updated. Missing you and the daughter and the city. Take care. Email me privately with any questions or concerns. Thanks.