And Speaking of Seminary. . . .

[qos]

Now that I'm re-admitted, I'm finding it hard to muster much enthusiasm.
Dealing with the federal student loan website doesn't help.
Nor does the prospect of rows of chairs and writing to assigned topics.

"Feral" feels more and more apt. I'm not looking favorably on the prospect of conforming to the demands of the Academy.

At the same time, I want the credential, I want the community, I want the stimulation and the excitement that going to classes brings to my life.

Hmmm. . . Maybe I need to approach school with the same kind of paradigm shift with which I approached motherhood. I've spent all my life concentrating on being A Good Student. What if I went back to seminary embracing both academic excellence and the archetype of the Wild Wolf Woman? I kind of started out that way, when I promised myself that I would not betray my truth, even when it meant speaking heresy. And that worked very well -- both for me and for those around me.

It's just that the vision of those neat rows of desks is scaring the heck out of me. . .

Comments

[wlotus.livejournal.com]

I don't remember reading that you were readmitted, so a hearty congratulations to you!!!

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[blessed-harlot.livejournal.com]

What if I went back to seminary embracing both academic excellence and the archetype of the Wild Wolf Woman?

Ooooooo, this sounds very exciting! And don't forget, a lot of those academic settings have moveable chairs now. :)

[qos.livejournal.com]

*grin*

Actually, at least half of my profs are big on the "put the desks in a circle" concept.

[toesontheground.livejournal.com]

Trust yourself! Be yourself!

And then, I'm sure, things will work out how they are meant to.

Kia kaha,
Barry

[qos.livejournal.com]

Good advice, Barry. . . . but it's tough to follow during those times when I feel my identity in flux.

And you know: I really need a "Kia kaha" icon!

[toesontheground.livejournal.com]

Good icon idea...hmmm, what should it look like... *ponders* :)

[rocket-jockey.livejournal.com]

Just remember that having all the sheep liked up in rows makes them easier prey.

[queenofhalves]

get to class early and move the desks into a circle. ;>

[qos.livejournal.com]

Actually, about half my profs actually do that. ;-)

And when I'm in the mood I'm in, that just seems silly.
So there's no pleasing me some days.