On the Eve
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qosI just got home from taking The Child for our traditional California-Pizza-Kitchen-on-Payday dinner.
Now I have to pack.
More specifically: I have to figure out how to fit 3-1/2 days worth of food, gear, and miscellaneous spiritual accessories (like my wand) into a backpack and still be able to hike 2.5-3 miles in an arid landscape tomorrow afternoon. (The good news is that it appears that the weather may be milder than usual this week.)
It's tough for a carnivore to pack food for a trip without refrigeration. Fortunately, I like nuts. I'm making up some trail mix with almonds, cashews, corn chex, and m&m's. And I have a bunch of South Beach Diet Maple Nut bars. Apples. Oranges. Croissants. The guides are providing breakfasts and dinners. I have visions of oatmeal with raisins for breakfast and lots of beans for dinner. I will try to survive.
I have three primary intentions for this journey:
1. To use the retreat time to go deep to connect with Spirit, in particular one or two of my guides.
2. To break out of my usual boxes of comfort, and dare to test some of my edges.
3. To be of service to my immediate communities through prayer, and to the earth and the larger community through the restoration work I will be doing on the land, and through prayers for our world.
Reflecting on the mythic/archetypal dimensions of the trip, it's come home to me that although this is a "journey", it's not a Hero's Journey. This isn't "into the woods." The journey into the desert for spiritual refinement/initiation is a whole different kind of expedition. More on that later, perhaps.
If any of you have prayers to spare between now and Tuesday night, they will be welcome. I would especially welcome prayers that my spirit will be strong when confronted with physical and psychological challenges, that I will be resilient enough to handle whatever it is that I need to face. Also prayers that I will have fun! I've begun to worry that I've been focusing so much on the challenging aspects of the trip that I've been shutting myself off from the possibilities of fun, pleasure, joy, and expansiveness.
This will probably be my last post until I get back -- but I'll be checking for comments between now and then.
Also: since I'll be way behind on LJ when I finally get back, please do leave a comment with a link if you post something you want to be sure I see. (Don't be shy! I'd hate to miss something!)
Blessings to everyone, and I'll see you when I return!
Now I have to pack.
More specifically: I have to figure out how to fit 3-1/2 days worth of food, gear, and miscellaneous spiritual accessories (like my wand) into a backpack and still be able to hike 2.5-3 miles in an arid landscape tomorrow afternoon. (The good news is that it appears that the weather may be milder than usual this week.)
It's tough for a carnivore to pack food for a trip without refrigeration. Fortunately, I like nuts. I'm making up some trail mix with almonds, cashews, corn chex, and m&m's. And I have a bunch of South Beach Diet Maple Nut bars. Apples. Oranges. Croissants. The guides are providing breakfasts and dinners. I have visions of oatmeal with raisins for breakfast and lots of beans for dinner. I will try to survive.
I have three primary intentions for this journey:
1. To use the retreat time to go deep to connect with Spirit, in particular one or two of my guides.
2. To break out of my usual boxes of comfort, and dare to test some of my edges.
3. To be of service to my immediate communities through prayer, and to the earth and the larger community through the restoration work I will be doing on the land, and through prayers for our world.
Reflecting on the mythic/archetypal dimensions of the trip, it's come home to me that although this is a "journey", it's not a Hero's Journey. This isn't "into the woods." The journey into the desert for spiritual refinement/initiation is a whole different kind of expedition. More on that later, perhaps.
If any of you have prayers to spare between now and Tuesday night, they will be welcome. I would especially welcome prayers that my spirit will be strong when confronted with physical and psychological challenges, that I will be resilient enough to handle whatever it is that I need to face. Also prayers that I will have fun! I've begun to worry that I've been focusing so much on the challenging aspects of the trip that I've been shutting myself off from the possibilities of fun, pleasure, joy, and expansiveness.
This will probably be my last post until I get back -- but I'll be checking for comments between now and then.
Also: since I'll be way behind on LJ when I finally get back, please do leave a comment with a link if you post something you want to be sure I see. (Don't be shy! I'd hate to miss something!)
Blessings to everyone, and I'll see you when I return!
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Be gentle with your expectations of yourself
Date: 2005-07-09 01:34 am (UTC)Qos the Vampire Slayer
Date: 2005-07-09 02:11 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2005-07-09 02:46 am (UTC)Anyway, I am so glad that you're doing this and...just be open to whatever comes. *hugs*
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Date: 2005-07-09 02:58 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2005-07-09 09:53 am (UTC)I'm looking forward to hearing all about it....
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Date: 2005-07-09 01:19 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2005-07-11 09:16 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2005-07-13 05:09 am (UTC)