Truth and Ecstasy

Last night while meditating (and bless Wolfling for urging me to get up from my desk and go do my practices like I said I needed to!), I was in a wordless place connecting with Divine light (Kether-Tiphareth), and became keenly aware that *this* -- an intimate connection to the Divine -- is what I've always longed for. I have very real frustration, even grief sometimes, about my lack of satisfaction in my career life, but that frustration is accompanied by the awareness that the reason I don't have the kind of career I thought I would is that ultimately I don't really care about those things, and I have refused to go through the motions in order to achieve ends that don't interest me.

So what have I been looking for? I asked myself and the Light.

The answer rose up within me: Truth and ecstasy.

I want to know, to understand, to have wisdom. And I want to live passionately, from my depths, and touch the heights. I want the transcendent, the joyous, the all-consuming.

Committing to a path that involves less than that has always felt like a sin -- although the gods know I've done it often enough.

Shout Out

Thank you to whoever left the anonymous comment last night adding some historical perspective to a strange dream from last year. Very interesting indeed. . . .