Lion or Lamb?

The SparkPeople "Healthy Reflections" email once again provides great inspiration:


It is better to live one day as a lion than one thousand days as a lamb.

How will your life be remembered? Will your story be lost among the millions who were afraid to take a chance? Or will you leave something noble behind? There's nothing to gain by following the crowd or doing what you've always done. You may as well put yourself out to pasture. But there's everything to gain by believing that you're king or queen of the jungle, even if just for a day. (Go ahead and roar if you want to.) Each of us has an amazing opportunity to live large if we allow it. It takes leaving the comfort of our familiar meadows and walking into the unknown. Once you take that chance, you've made your days worthwhile. Even if you have few resources, adventure is around every corner, and life is waiting to be devoured. If you were to write the book of your life, would you want to read it?

Dragging Myself Kicking and Screaming

I need to leave the house soon to go to a big annual party at the home of one of my favorite people from FormerMyCo. Each summer, she and her husband open their home, cook pounds and pounds of great food, have an open bar, karaoke, and etc. and invite all their friends in. I was invited last year, but it was the day I observed the first anniversary of Lohain's death, and I just didn't have the energy.

This year, I promised her and myself I would go.
Of course I'm regretting it, and wishing I could stay home.
Okay, I could -- but I do that far too often.

It just feels strange to make the effort to spend forty-five minutes or so driving across the lake to attend an event I'm convinced I won't enjoy.

Except, I guess, that I suspect my "conviction" is as likely to be wrong as it is to be right.

It will be good to see my friend.

And I can leave any time.

ETA: I didn't have a great time, but I did enjoy some nice conversations. My buddy who was the hostess went out of her way to look out for me and make sure I wasn't left alone until I made some connections, which I really appreciated. Saw and chatted with some old MyCo colleagues, although none from my core teams. Gave away several business cards.