Several weeks ago I started exchanging emails with a man I met on a networking site --
not a dating site. To my surprise, things progressed quickly, to the point that I was
really looking forward to his emails, beginning to think about meeting him, perhaps even doing some scening with him.
Things immediately became complicated and fraught. He responded to my warmth and interest with even more emotion -- not in itself a bad thing, but he quickly went far beyond the point of my actual interest and comfort. The tipping point came when he emailed me an erotic story he'd written. It was in many ways a very nice story, and I approved of all the content except the fact that it was clearly supposed to be about the two of us, and we were portrayed as being on our first playdate and expressing deep and adoring love for each other.
Red flag!( So the drama! )Honestly, I'm a bit sad that he turned out to be so needy and insecure. He seemed like he could have been a good friend and possibly someone to enjoy doing things with. But I am
done with men who are so insecure they project their worst fears onto me and then react to that instead of to what I actually say and do. He kept making assumptions about me that were totally baseless and then treating them like actual experience.
I've since re-written my profile to be more blunt about what I am and am not looking for, and am going to be much more careful about what I express in emails. I was taken totally off-guard by my attraction to this guy -- the first actual interest I'd felt in a male since
uncrowned_king and
_storyteller_ came into my life three years ago -- so I was utterly unprepared for the rapidity with which I allowed things to get to an intimate, even romantic level. I'm sorry that he got burned because I lost track of myself. . . but if he had been more secure, we might still have found a place we were both comfortable and had a good time together.
