Tell Me Again About the Spiral Path?
Aug. 1st, 2006 06:04 amOne of the nice things about my life is that I usually feel like I am making progress. Sometimes the progress is slow. Sometimes I feel like "Wait a minute -- didn't I have this same a-ha moment at least once before?" But usually even the repeat lessons feel like I did start the latest iteration at a slightly higher level than the first time. I'm not going in circles, it's a spiral path. An upward one.
So it was with a certain amount of disgust yesterday that I stared down at the list I was writing in my journal and then wrote over it The Same Damn List. Because it was.
It was my "Pentacles list" -- the list of those areas of my life most in the need of love and sacralization and disciplined attention. Most in need of an infusion of joy.
Okay, maybe I am farther along than I was before. Previously the only way I could think of these tasks and goals were as distasteful but necessary chores. Now I recognize the need for them to be infused with joy and Spirit. The need to change how I relate to them, not just what I do.
But I don't feel any closer to that condition than I was before.
( The List. Again. And a request for insights and suggestions. )
So it was with a certain amount of disgust yesterday that I stared down at the list I was writing in my journal and then wrote over it The Same Damn List. Because it was.
It was my "Pentacles list" -- the list of those areas of my life most in the need of love and sacralization and disciplined attention. Most in need of an infusion of joy.
Okay, maybe I am farther along than I was before. Previously the only way I could think of these tasks and goals were as distasteful but necessary chores. Now I recognize the need for them to be infused with joy and Spirit. The need to change how I relate to them, not just what I do.
But I don't feel any closer to that condition than I was before.
( The List. Again. And a request for insights and suggestions. )