This Morning's Oracle

Every so often I either click over to Tarot.com or respond to one of their "try this!" emails. This morning I used some of my stocked up "karma coins" to purchase a Diamond Numerology Report.

I don't usually do numerology, but this one was so right on, especially given what I've been posting lately (some under Friends-lock) that I had to share this:


QoS, the more you allow the true "QoS" out in the open, the more people will respect you and the more rewarding and satisfying your life will be. When you feel like laughing out loud, laugh out loud. When you feel anger, be angry. When you feel like hugging, hug. Be yourself. This is far from easy. In fact, it is very difficult and requires courage. But the reward is directly proportionate to the challenge.

In order to become less inhibited, you must become less self-conscious. You become less self-conscious when you take yourself less seriously. You will take yourself less seriously when you see all the things you have in common with your fellow men, instead of seeing yourself as different.

Key ingredients needed for the duration of this diamond are courage, honesty, and an open-minded outlook on life.

You will take yourself less seriously when you see all the things you have in common with your fellow men, instead of seeing yourself as different.

This really is the key to so much with me. It is the feeling of being alien which silenced my voice for most of my life, and which has been shifting dramatically over the past few years. I need to continue to trust that commonality as I put myself out further into the world with what I have to offer.

Dreaming

Usually I like dreaming.
I'm fortunate in that I tend to have vivid, colorful dreams -- and a good share of meaningful ones.

However I really resent it when my subconscious chooses to spend the night dwelling on my day job rather than something more relaxing. For the past few nights I've been dreaming of the kick-off road show, the organization of which (agenda, travel plans, meeting space, and etc.) is my big project at work right now, and THE major source of stress in my life.

I could really use a good night's sleep when I could forget about it for a while, not be in the midst of it.

I Should Mention. . . .

That this Saturday I will be meeting KH, the girl for whom I did the intense tarot reading/spiritual direction session shortly before Christmas, at her home to work with her again.

I forgot to bring my tarot cards to our last group meeting, so I told her and her friends that we could get together separately and I would do readings for them. I felt like because it was event-connected I didn't feel right charging her -- but this really counts, for me, as my first official session as spiritual director, meeting with someone away from a group event.

And as I approach the meeting, I am realizing how much I need to sit down with myself and come to terms with my feelings about money, and how I'm going to charge people. That part still feels very awkward, and I need to journal about it more to get some clarity.

But I've taken the biggest step: I've connected with someone I didn't know before, and I followed up with her, trusting that I had something to offer that is of value to her, and made an appointment.

And it felt so natural that I almost missed the huge significance of it.