Whirr, Grind, Crunch

[qos]

Processing a lot of thoughts about integrity.

Enjoying the first emotionally-backed creative ideas about my novel in approximately two years. I think I finally understand how to make the character on whom the last act depends come to life.

Talking to flooring contractors and salespeople and a rep from California Closets.

Still processing Revenge of the Sith.

Trying to spend less time on the computer.

Comments

[toesontheground.livejournal.com]

Hope you can finish the novel and get to see it in print!

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the encouragement, Barry -- but right now I am quite specifically focusing on not thinking about publication, or any other kind of external audience.

One of the primary reasons the story got derailed was that I started focusing on the hypothetical future publisher and audience who might one day read it, instead of focusing on the internal stream of inspiration and gut-level emotion that was driving it. I also sought input from friends --most of which was good, but not all of which fit with what I was trying to do. I tried to include most of those suggested changes, even when I didn't really entirely agree with them, because I wanted them to like what I was doing. I ended up betraying my own vision and creativity and the story died.

I like the idea of other people reading the finished product and enjoying it -- but right now I am writing it just for myself.