Further Refinement of My Self-Awareness of My Vocation and Path

[qos]

It remains true that the Underworld Path is my primary orientation as a priestess. I am initiated and ordained in this path, and intend to remain faithful to it.

I use the techniques and wisdom of Hermetic magic, including Qabalah, as my central mode of practice, and I both want and need to refine my skill and knowledge in this area.

I work with specific deities who don't have obvious connections to each other but who are all resonant with the Underworld Path as I walk it. (YMMV)

I want to increase my devotional practice to promote deeper relationships with my patron deities. This was once the center of my spiritual life, but grew tenuous in the years I wasn't sure about the nature of the Divine or whether there were individual gods or not.

My relationship with LM is a central part of my life and an integral aspect of my spiritual path. I want to enhance our working relationship as priestess and priest.

I am also ordained as a Grail Priestess, and I want to energize that aspect of my spirituality again. I smiled yesterday when I remembered that the oldest Grail text is Preiddeu Annwn the story of Arthur and his knights voyaging to the Otherworld to seek the Cauldron of Annwn. It's an Underworld text.

My sexuality is closely connected to my spirituality. I need to continue to explore how this expresses itself in public as well as private work.

I also have a vocation as a spiritual director and teacher, and it is important to me to strengthen my skills in this area and to express my gifts in public work. I would like to be financially rewarded for this work, but I don't want that to be my central motviation in doing it.

None of this is actually new, but as I re-establish myself in the upper world, it's evidently important for me to work through all of this again and reaffirm what I am doing and how it fits together for me, rather than just accepting what has become habit during the years of grieving.

Comments

[oakmouse]

*nods* Returning to the upperworld is a good time to slough off mere habit, and reaffirm core truths that had come to appear to be habit but are actually necessities. I think you're doing a great job of that.

[shadowandstar.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

It feels like the new ring came to me as a sign that my spiral was taking another turn upward: transition and re-dedication to the ongoing path.

Time to knuckle down again on my hermetic work, starting with those elemental pentagrams I'm supposed to have been memorizing. . . Please poke me!

[oakmouse]

I'll do my best. You know how my memory is when I'm overloaded! Set yourself a reminder, and I'll try to augment it.