Limits of Definition
Jul. 7th, 2010 09:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosHaving a challenging conversation with family about a painful pattern and then following it up with a clarifying email doesn't get credit for "doing my practices" -- but I think it does qualify as "doing my work."
Friends who have been around for a while, especially those who have been on my primary journal, know how I've been struggling around authenticity, vocation, and parental comfort zones for years. I've done a lot of focused work in this area the last month or two, which is probably what led to my being triggered this evening after telling my parents about the devotional, something I've never mentioned before.
My family does not have "scenes" -- but I did not handle the situation as gracefully as I would have liked, thus the follow-up email.
I'm now exhausted, and it's an hour past the time I'm scheduled to start my evening practices. I spent the time writing my email instead of doing hermetic exercses. I just want to collapse in bed, but I'll do a short cycle first.
I wish I had handled the conversation better, but I can't regret that it happened.
Friends who have been around for a while, especially those who have been on my primary journal, know how I've been struggling around authenticity, vocation, and parental comfort zones for years. I've done a lot of focused work in this area the last month or two, which is probably what led to my being triggered this evening after telling my parents about the devotional, something I've never mentioned before.
My family does not have "scenes" -- but I did not handle the situation as gracefully as I would have liked, thus the follow-up email.
I'm now exhausted, and it's an hour past the time I'm scheduled to start my evening practices. I spent the time writing my email instead of doing hermetic exercses. I just want to collapse in bed, but I'll do a short cycle first.
I wish I had handled the conversation better, but I can't regret that it happened.
