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qosI was getting ready to go do my magical exercises a few minutes ago, and suddenly realized that the prospect made me want to sit down and cry.
And the thing is: this is not an unusual a reaction to thoughts of doing my work. Most of the time, I just don't allow myself to acknowledge it. And then of course, it ends up getting in the way of my work: either by keeping me from starting or by making it that much harder to concentrate if I do go forward.
At the advice of a friend (waves to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sweetlycorrupt), I'm going to go out on the balcony, get some fresh air, and journal about the feelings.
I've been trying to do more of that kind of journaling these days, trying to get down into the blocks and deflections that come up between me and my stated goals. Such journaling usually results in the feelings dissipating, allowing me to move forward with focused energy and a positive outlook. The challenge is remembering to do that when the come up.
This is the hardest I've ever had to work at anything in my life.
And the thing is: this is not an unusual a reaction to thoughts of doing my work. Most of the time, I just don't allow myself to acknowledge it. And then of course, it ends up getting in the way of my work: either by keeping me from starting or by making it that much harder to concentrate if I do go forward.
At the advice of a friend (waves to
sweetlycorrupt), I'm going to go out on the balcony, get some fresh air, and journal about the feelings. I've been trying to do more of that kind of journaling these days, trying to get down into the blocks and deflections that come up between me and my stated goals. Such journaling usually results in the feelings dissipating, allowing me to move forward with focused energy and a positive outlook. The challenge is remembering to do that when the come up.
This is the hardest I've ever had to work at anything in my life.
