Maintaining Roots
Apr. 15th, 2009 08:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosMy life is in a certain amount of stressful but productive and liberating upheaval right now: dayjob ends on Friday, moving Saturday, starting my business, etc., etc.
My routine daily practice has been. . . minimal. . . the last week or so.
At the same time, I feel like the new energy in my life is a direct and dramatic result of the hard work I've been doing for the past almost-two-years, and that my ability to trust that energy and the transformations in myself is more potent than ever before.
There's a lot of Inanna energy in my life right now -- something I've known I've needed for months, and had been trying to cultivate. I'm trying to learn the dance of dynamic balance between outward/joyous/expansive Inanna energy and the dark, deep roots of my connection with Ereshkigal, which is where I am grounded. Trying to stay grounded.
It's the dance of both/and -- one which I still find more challenging than I'd like, although I'm getting better. Part of my daily practice is to stand between my Ereshkigal altar and my Inanna altar, reach out toward both, and envision myself as the center point of a figure-eight loop between them. I partake of both. Both are essential for my overall well-being.
Part of the roots aspect is also learning how to maintain my full daily practice when I'm tired, stressed, and in avoidance mode -- which describes my state during most evenings for the past week. One of the changes I'm going to try next week -- when I'm no longer officially employed -- is to switch the bulk of my practices to the early mornings, when I'm at my peak. I'm not a night person, and evening is the time I spend with my daughter, so I'm setting myself up for extra challenges by scheduling my practices for the end of the day.
I am glad that I'm getting much better at allowing myself to be human, to not get completely thrown off track by the inevitable times of being less than perfect in my practices. I want to be better at staying on track, but I no longer see lapses as a sign that I should abandon the process and the commitment. This is also a new development in my health and fitness life.
My routine daily practice has been. . . minimal. . . the last week or so.
At the same time, I feel like the new energy in my life is a direct and dramatic result of the hard work I've been doing for the past almost-two-years, and that my ability to trust that energy and the transformations in myself is more potent than ever before.
There's a lot of Inanna energy in my life right now -- something I've known I've needed for months, and had been trying to cultivate. I'm trying to learn the dance of dynamic balance between outward/joyous/expansive Inanna energy and the dark, deep roots of my connection with Ereshkigal, which is where I am grounded. Trying to stay grounded.
It's the dance of both/and -- one which I still find more challenging than I'd like, although I'm getting better. Part of my daily practice is to stand between my Ereshkigal altar and my Inanna altar, reach out toward both, and envision myself as the center point of a figure-eight loop between them. I partake of both. Both are essential for my overall well-being.
Part of the roots aspect is also learning how to maintain my full daily practice when I'm tired, stressed, and in avoidance mode -- which describes my state during most evenings for the past week. One of the changes I'm going to try next week -- when I'm no longer officially employed -- is to switch the bulk of my practices to the early mornings, when I'm at my peak. I'm not a night person, and evening is the time I spend with my daughter, so I'm setting myself up for extra challenges by scheduling my practices for the end of the day.
I am glad that I'm getting much better at allowing myself to be human, to not get completely thrown off track by the inevitable times of being less than perfect in my practices. I want to be better at staying on track, but I no longer see lapses as a sign that I should abandon the process and the commitment. This is also a new development in my health and fitness life.
