Tired

[qos]

Some nights I just don't feel like doing my practices.

That used to be a much more common feeling. For the better part of a year I felt fierce resistance pretty much every single day. Sometime during the last few months it smoothed out, became habit. In fact, it now feels next to impossible to skip them.

But tonight. . . tonight I just want to fall into bed.

The last few days have been tough: an emotional crash last night, getting sick on Friday, getting a lay-off notice on Thursday, realizing I need to move for the third time in as many years. . . I've had good reason to feel flattened by late evening.

I thought tonight would be better, but while I'm not emotionally ragged I am physically beat.

Short cycle, I guess. . . But I will do something.


ETA I just did a complete cycle, and it wasn't hard at all. . .

Comments

[sekhmetkare.livejournal.com]

I can SO relate to this. Sometimes it just doesn't seem worth it, even though you know it really is... You are smart to do something, however brief, otherwise you will probably feel even more out of sorts.

Sorry you are ill, hope you feel better soon. **hugs**