Sex and Spirit Excavations
Jan. 26th, 2009 09:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosThe last two weekends have been extremely intense as far as focused work with Ereshkigal and Inanna. Actually, two weekends ago it was Ereshkigal and LM all day, yesterday it was all three of them in the morning, followed by an initiatory virtual intimate exchange.
I'm doing some deep excavations around how my sexuality and my spirituality intersect. There are patterns that seem to go back a very long way, patterns I need to understand if I am to go forward. I was reminded on Sunday morning that my sexuality has a great deal in common with Inanna's: it's unruly, transgressive. It doesn't fit well with being a wife.* It's where my feral nature comes from. LM called me his Feral Queen, and I loved the way the nickname combined both wildness and order. In some ways, it's both Inanna and Ereshkigal.
I don't yet understand how, but this weekend has made it even more clear than before that my sexuality is part of my priestess work. I don't think it will be any one particular way, or the same in all contexts. But I have to bring it with me to the altar, into Ereshkigal's throne room, into my public life as a priestess. It's part of the primal magic that I work with LM as my priest.
(*Standard disclaimers apply. I don't mean to imply that wives can't be sexy-wild. These are my own subjective archetypes and experiences.)
I'm doing some deep excavations around how my sexuality and my spirituality intersect. There are patterns that seem to go back a very long way, patterns I need to understand if I am to go forward. I was reminded on Sunday morning that my sexuality has a great deal in common with Inanna's: it's unruly, transgressive. It doesn't fit well with being a wife.* It's where my feral nature comes from. LM called me his Feral Queen, and I loved the way the nickname combined both wildness and order. In some ways, it's both Inanna and Ereshkigal.
I don't yet understand how, but this weekend has made it even more clear than before that my sexuality is part of my priestess work. I don't think it will be any one particular way, or the same in all contexts. But I have to bring it with me to the altar, into Ereshkigal's throne room, into my public life as a priestess. It's part of the primal magic that I work with LM as my priest.
(*Standard disclaimers apply. I don't mean to imply that wives can't be sexy-wild. These are my own subjective archetypes and experiences.)
