Immersed in Spirit
Jan. 19th, 2009 06:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosI spent almost all of Sunday in an altered state of one degree or another. From the time I woke up until the time I went to bed I was focused on the spiritual, creative, and/or the erotic, and both LM and Ereshkigal were vividly present throughout the day. By the time I called my teacher at a little after 9pm I felt more than a little overwhelmed by the intensity of the experiences. Any one of them fell within the borders of normal for me -- but to have them off and on throughout the day, with no other major input, was a new experience. It was very rich, and I got some important insights, but I'm looking forward to going to my day job and grounding in the mundane again for a while.
Nothing that I was told was so far out of left field that it was beyond credible, but I did find myself asking "Did I hear you right?" more than once. Several things have been filed away as "Intriguing but unproven." LM and I explored some previously uncharted territory in our own relationship, which was challenging but good for both of us. Ereshkigal certainly took me to a new place.
There are certain aspects of my psyche which have always responded strongly to certain imagery and actions, and She very deliberately pushes those buttons to shift my consciousness and get certain points across. What was especially interesting about one of the encounters was that even as She was taking me down deep, She was very clear about wanting me to be aware of what She was doing so I could begin to think about doing similar things to someone else in the future, as a priestess. There was a clear message of Learn from this. Yes, I'd need more than solo spiritual experience to become a good priestess-top, but I have to start by being comfortable seeing/imagining myself in that role.
I spent a lot of time in the headspace of spiritual bottom, but at the end of the day everything was realigned, and I was suddenly aware of how much power and energy had gone into me for the purposes of making it my own. It's easier to be filled when one begins by being empty and yin.
Nothing that I was told was so far out of left field that it was beyond credible, but I did find myself asking "Did I hear you right?" more than once. Several things have been filed away as "Intriguing but unproven." LM and I explored some previously uncharted territory in our own relationship, which was challenging but good for both of us. Ereshkigal certainly took me to a new place.
There are certain aspects of my psyche which have always responded strongly to certain imagery and actions, and She very deliberately pushes those buttons to shift my consciousness and get certain points across. What was especially interesting about one of the encounters was that even as She was taking me down deep, She was very clear about wanting me to be aware of what She was doing so I could begin to think about doing similar things to someone else in the future, as a priestess. There was a clear message of Learn from this. Yes, I'd need more than solo spiritual experience to become a good priestess-top, but I have to start by being comfortable seeing/imagining myself in that role.
I spent a lot of time in the headspace of spiritual bottom, but at the end of the day everything was realigned, and I was suddenly aware of how much power and energy had gone into me for the purposes of making it my own. It's easier to be filled when one begins by being empty and yin.
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Date: 2009-01-19 05:44 pm (UTC)