Note to Self: It's Not About the Woo-Woo

[qos]

During my meditation this morning I had an important realization: at this time, my practice isn't about "woo-woo" for the sake of doing woo-woo. The point of the practice is to ground me and energize me and enrich me so that I will be better able to apply my existing gifts and talents in the world.

Maybe one day I will become accomplished with various magical-priestessesy techniques, and then I will have more ways in which to take meaningful action -- but that's for the future.

Right now it's about being the priestess I am, where I am, with what I've got -- and doing that well.

Comments

[oakmouse]

Exactly. Your training period is all about being grounded and energized and enriched and learning to stretch your wings and do new and different things. You're not going to be perfect immediately, and it's going to involve times of chaos and vagueness and trying to run in six directions at once.

You know, really, the process can be rather fun if you can avoid getting stuck in worrying about not making progress or not Doing Things. (I know. Burnt that particular t-shirt myself.) So try to relax and enjoy the moment.

Six Directions at Once

[shadowandstar.livejournal.com]

it's going to involve times of chaos and vagueness and trying to run in six directions at once.

This is the hardest thing right now -- especially the six directions at once. But there's been chaos and vagueness for more than a week now, which is also hard. I haven't been doing my morning practice -- although I did some warm-ups and a meditation the day this came, proving that some practice is better than none at all.

Persistence, perserverance.
Right.

Re: Six Directions at Once

[oakmouse]

Perseverance, indeed. But not beating self up, right? ;)

Re: Six Directions at Once

[shadowandstar.livejournal.com]

Perseverance, indeed. But not beating self up, right? ;)

Right.

Besides, my new Lady is making it clear that I'm going to be focusing a lot more tightly in the immediate future. This morning during my meditation she hooked her fingers through my collar, pulled me close and said with one of her scary smiles, "This is where you go deep."

[shadowandstar.livejournal.com]

Indeed. And this is one of the places where my Christian background comes in handy. I was raised in a tradition which placed a high value on compassion and service, and it's still a standard by which I measure my practice. As one who tends toward mysticism and solitary practice rather than community, I have to shake myself every so often and ask what good my spiritual life is doing the world -- because if there isn't a benefit beyond me, then it's not what it should be.