Milestones
Oct. 13th, 2007 09:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosBack on September 29th I posted about my interaction with the Gate I've been working with for months. I thought at the time that I'd achieved what I was supposed to, but afterward I was told "You need to go back at least one more time."
So I went back, and this time I could see the gate itself even more clearly, and what lay beyond was entirely different than what I'd seen before. Later I was told "Now you can choose whether to go through or not." However, I'm still not sure what's really beyond, or what going through will mean, so I haven't made that decision yet. But it was clear that I'd done the work that was necessary to get me to the point where it was possible for me to make the decision.
Also last month a friend referred me to as a "business woman" in regard to my work in setting up my private spiritual direction practice. The term took me totally off-guard, and I realized that I had not adopted that sense of identity -- and that I probably should adopt it if I want to one day leave my day job (or at least scale back on hours) so I can devote more time to my vocation. All my life I've expected to work for an organization. I hadn't yet gotten my head around the idea of working for myself as a legitimate, responsible path.
Then there was my visit to the temple of Inanna a few days ago. Among the significant elements of that encounter was accepting the goddess's statement that one of the reasons I've been blocked for so long is that I came into this life not wanting to hold the degree of responsibility I have in the past, and acknowledging that I'm ready to start taking more responsibility again.
Yesterday I finally submitted feedback on a brochure for my practice and met with my own spiritual director about the business aspects of the vocation.
Last night I found a message from a friend I like very much and for whom I have the deepest respect, asking me if I would be her spiritual director. I said I would be honored. (I'm not going to be journaling any more about that publically because of confidentiality.)
I feel like very old obstacles are finally dropping away, like melting icebergs.
I feel like I'm starting to reach critical mass in the transformations I've been seeking for years.
So I went back, and this time I could see the gate itself even more clearly, and what lay beyond was entirely different than what I'd seen before. Later I was told "Now you can choose whether to go through or not." However, I'm still not sure what's really beyond, or what going through will mean, so I haven't made that decision yet. But it was clear that I'd done the work that was necessary to get me to the point where it was possible for me to make the decision.
Also last month a friend referred me to as a "business woman" in regard to my work in setting up my private spiritual direction practice. The term took me totally off-guard, and I realized that I had not adopted that sense of identity -- and that I probably should adopt it if I want to one day leave my day job (or at least scale back on hours) so I can devote more time to my vocation. All my life I've expected to work for an organization. I hadn't yet gotten my head around the idea of working for myself as a legitimate, responsible path.
Then there was my visit to the temple of Inanna a few days ago. Among the significant elements of that encounter was accepting the goddess's statement that one of the reasons I've been blocked for so long is that I came into this life not wanting to hold the degree of responsibility I have in the past, and acknowledging that I'm ready to start taking more responsibility again.
Yesterday I finally submitted feedback on a brochure for my practice and met with my own spiritual director about the business aspects of the vocation.
Last night I found a message from a friend I like very much and for whom I have the deepest respect, asking me if I would be her spiritual director. I said I would be honored. (I'm not going to be journaling any more about that publically because of confidentiality.)
I feel like very old obstacles are finally dropping away, like melting icebergs.
I feel like I'm starting to reach critical mass in the transformations I've been seeking for years.
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Date: 2007-10-14 04:00 am (UTC)