Solus and Charlie
Jul. 4th, 2007 09:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosWhen I started browsing The Faeries Oracle, I was surprised to find that not all the faeries represented were pixie-like beings. The first set, called The Singers, are more like archangels -- very, very powerful, transcendent beings. The person on card 13 is Solus, the bridge between the transcendent world and the material worlds. My teacher suggested that I try to contact both the Singer called The Guardian at the Gate and Solus, as I'm doing some work with gates right now.
As I read the description of Solus, I was amazed by how perfectly his energy and purpose match those of Charlie, my first inner teacher and mentor, who I thought for many years was simply an especially vivid product of my vivid imagination.
These words in particular resonated with me:
Solus encourages us to stand on our own feet, to recognize and utilize our own wisdom, to depend on our own strength, and to acknowledge and work with our own good qualities, using them as stepping-stones to improve the less good. Yet, at the same time, Solus recognizes that we cannot do everything alone, and helps us to make the connections and to have the insights that will help us to accept wisdom, energy, and assistance from other realms. . .
That's Charlie all over.
After reading that, I closed my eyes and had the first strong encounter I've had with Charlie in more than two years. He was smiling, pleased that I had finally found my way to this place by choosing and acting to move between worlds. He expressed regret that the shape of the story I wrote from our early encounters had left me expecting to have an outer force move me to new worlds instead of claiming that power for myself. We had a chuckle over my being a "reverse Dorothy" -- always having the power to leave home and move to other worlds, but lacking the heart faith to be able to use it.
And then he told me that work with me is finished. I've come to the place where I can move between worlds, to link more than one with my understanding, and form relationships with friends and allies. His job is done, and he has other students to work with.
Of course I felt resistance, and asked him to stay. He gently refused, and told me he has other students to guide. I've learned the lessons he came to teach me (even if I have not yet perfected them), and now I need to go on to new teachers.
However he did agree that we could have friendly visits in the future.
As I read the description of Solus, I was amazed by how perfectly his energy and purpose match those of Charlie, my first inner teacher and mentor, who I thought for many years was simply an especially vivid product of my vivid imagination.
These words in particular resonated with me:
Solus encourages us to stand on our own feet, to recognize and utilize our own wisdom, to depend on our own strength, and to acknowledge and work with our own good qualities, using them as stepping-stones to improve the less good. Yet, at the same time, Solus recognizes that we cannot do everything alone, and helps us to make the connections and to have the insights that will help us to accept wisdom, energy, and assistance from other realms. . .
That's Charlie all over.
After reading that, I closed my eyes and had the first strong encounter I've had with Charlie in more than two years. He was smiling, pleased that I had finally found my way to this place by choosing and acting to move between worlds. He expressed regret that the shape of the story I wrote from our early encounters had left me expecting to have an outer force move me to new worlds instead of claiming that power for myself. We had a chuckle over my being a "reverse Dorothy" -- always having the power to leave home and move to other worlds, but lacking the heart faith to be able to use it.
And then he told me that work with me is finished. I've come to the place where I can move between worlds, to link more than one with my understanding, and form relationships with friends and allies. His job is done, and he has other students to work with.
Of course I felt resistance, and asked him to stay. He gently refused, and told me he has other students to guide. I've learned the lessons he came to teach me (even if I have not yet perfected them), and now I need to go on to new teachers.
However he did agree that we could have friendly visits in the future.
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Date: 2007-07-05 05:32 pm (UTC)He was right, of course. After he left I could feel his awareness distantly watching over me, and when I called him he came. I didn't call that often, though, because doing without him wasn't the painful lonely experience I had expected. It really _was_ time for him to go, and I was ready to do without him. I never quite got used to the fact that I could so easily become accustomed to his absence, when other passings have left me bereft for months or years, but there it is: I learned to do without him fairly quickly and comfortably.
I think you'll find this change less difficult to adjust to than you may expect. Of course, if you need to talk about it, I'm here.