Into the Interstitial
Dec. 26th, 2019 04:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosHappy Day After Christmas!
I realized yesterday that I haven't been looking forward to Yule or Solstice or Christmas as much as I've been looking forward to the coming week.
As someone who has worked as admin support for most of the past twenty years, the time between Christmas and New Year's was a nice time to come into the office and get paid without having much (if any) specific demands on me because the people I supported were almost always on vacation. It felt like having a bit of vacation without having to use the days.
But last year I decided that I was going to take those days as vacation this year. I finally have enough Personal Time Off saved, and because of the way the days fall, it's only requiring four of them to get a whole week.
I'm going to be using this time to go deeply inside. . . to reconnect with my own depths. I've been living in survival mode for a long time, keeping myself on the surface because I haven't had the energy (on several levels) to do otherwise. That's the primary intention, but I'm also going to be seeking Mystery, open to new ideas and impulses (while practicing discernment about the source of such things).
During the days I'm working on getting the house more in order (still needing to help FoxGirl sort through her piles of belongings), and I still need to see 'The Rise of Skywalker' and "Knives Out." I'll do those as matinees, and settle myself into ritual space after dark.
I realized yesterday that I haven't been looking forward to Yule or Solstice or Christmas as much as I've been looking forward to the coming week.
As someone who has worked as admin support for most of the past twenty years, the time between Christmas and New Year's was a nice time to come into the office and get paid without having much (if any) specific demands on me because the people I supported were almost always on vacation. It felt like having a bit of vacation without having to use the days.
But last year I decided that I was going to take those days as vacation this year. I finally have enough Personal Time Off saved, and because of the way the days fall, it's only requiring four of them to get a whole week.
I'm going to be using this time to go deeply inside. . . to reconnect with my own depths. I've been living in survival mode for a long time, keeping myself on the surface because I haven't had the energy (on several levels) to do otherwise. That's the primary intention, but I'm also going to be seeking Mystery, open to new ideas and impulses (while practicing discernment about the source of such things).
During the days I'm working on getting the house more in order (still needing to help FoxGirl sort through her piles of belongings), and I still need to see 'The Rise of Skywalker' and "Knives Out." I'll do those as matinees, and settle myself into ritual space after dark.
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Date: 2019-12-27 03:25 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2019-12-27 07:04 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2019-12-27 08:19 pm (UTC)ETA: and in the immortal words of Philip Carr-Gomm, "Don't forget the most important thing of all: have fun."
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Date: 2019-12-27 08:29 pm (UTC)In fact. . . one of the most important things I've been doing in preparation for this time is to focus on the fact that even though I'm going deep, this is not intended to be a "descent." Not in the sense of an ordeal.
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Date: 2019-12-30 02:15 am (UTC)