A Different Kind of New Year's Resolution
Dec. 23rd, 2019 01:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosI have decided that my new year's resolution -- my only one -- will be "To have fun."
I was depressed for more than a decade, and when I finally fully emerged it was to the ugly reality of the Trump presidency and the ovewhelming realization that climate change is happening now. My job is bleah. I've lost a lot of friends because depression exhausted me. My daughter continues to struggle. And. . . I've always tended to the serious side of things.
This year, without denying or turning my back on any of these very real struggles and challenges, I am going to make a point of having fun: of seeking it out, of inviting it in, of allowing myself to play and laugh. I'm going make a point of lightening up, remembering to smile, and looking for ways to take pleasure in my body, my creativity, and my sense of adventure. (Not necessarily all at the same time, but I wouldn't say no!)
I'm not throwing away my other goals, but I am going to privilege this one. I suspect it will make the others more likely to be achieved if I am enjoying my life more -- but I'm not going to make that the *reason* for the resolution. Fun is valid for its own sake!
I was depressed for more than a decade, and when I finally fully emerged it was to the ugly reality of the Trump presidency and the ovewhelming realization that climate change is happening now. My job is bleah. I've lost a lot of friends because depression exhausted me. My daughter continues to struggle. And. . . I've always tended to the serious side of things.
This year, without denying or turning my back on any of these very real struggles and challenges, I am going to make a point of having fun: of seeking it out, of inviting it in, of allowing myself to play and laugh. I'm going make a point of lightening up, remembering to smile, and looking for ways to take pleasure in my body, my creativity, and my sense of adventure. (Not necessarily all at the same time, but I wouldn't say no!)
I'm not throwing away my other goals, but I am going to privilege this one. I suspect it will make the others more likely to be achieved if I am enjoying my life more -- but I'm not going to make that the *reason* for the resolution. Fun is valid for its own sake!
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