Happy?

[qos]

queenofhalves asked an excellent question: When was the last time you were happy before you had Lohain in your life?

I wrote:

Two things come to mind. The first is working at the rocket company. I had meaningful, fun work, and there was a lot of passion in my life.

After that, seminary. I really enjoyed the community, the study, the challenge.

My problem (one of them, anyway) is creating the kind of stimulating work that both these situations provided for me. *Supposedly* I'm working on that with my SD practice and working on the Ereshkigal book. . . but it hasn't actually turned out that way. I'm not as much of a self-starter as I could be.

And I've probably been underestimating the importance of community to my well-being. I've invested a lot of energy into my self-image as an introvert, independent, not a community-joiner. But when I don't have the community and support of others, I flounder.


Re-posting this here to help me remember.

Comments

[wlotus.livejournal.com]

You're welcomed.

Being patient with yourself can include planting a boot in your own backside. :-) There is a difference between pushing yourself as though you have had that skill all along and pushing yourself while recognizing you are still learning and will falter from time to time as you get up to speed.

[qos.livejournal.com]

A wise distinction.

Thank you.