No Less Than Expected
Feb. 25th, 2008 07:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosOnce I got free of work today, I had to stop and realize Yes, this is what I've been expecting.
You see: when I was in high school, my dad taught my Sunday School class an extremely important lesson: for every high, there's a low.
Strange lesson for Sunday School, right? It was the lesson my King of Swords father drew from the aftermath of Elijah's victory over the priests of Baal. He had a huge, dramatic public triumph when fire from heaven consumed his water-soaked sacrifice while the sacrifice of the priests of Baal was still lying there. Then he led an assault on Jerusalem to throw the idolators out. And what he did he do after the second victory? He ran out to a cave in the wilderness and wept and moaned about YHVH had abandoned him. To which anyone who is paying attention might ask, WTF??
Elijah's depression demonstrated a profound psychological truth, according to my father: after you have a peak experience, you're going to end up in a valley. It's part of the natural and normal cycling process of the human emotional pattern. Enjoy the high while you're on it, but don't freak out when you experience the compensatory/complementary slide down the other side of that peak. My previous two entries were the skid marks of me sliding down from the peak into the valley.
Pantheacon was a significant high for me. I haven't told anywhere near all of the significant stuff that happened, especially in the area of spiritual initiations. When I got back, I was immediately immersed in intensity at work, which continued to keep me "up" -- even if I was stressed. But my weekend was very relaxing, and today was "business as usual" at the office: in other words, time for the crash.
It's no wonder I've been grieving, over-sensitive, frustrated, and irritable all day today.
You see: when I was in high school, my dad taught my Sunday School class an extremely important lesson: for every high, there's a low.
Strange lesson for Sunday School, right? It was the lesson my King of Swords father drew from the aftermath of Elijah's victory over the priests of Baal. He had a huge, dramatic public triumph when fire from heaven consumed his water-soaked sacrifice while the sacrifice of the priests of Baal was still lying there. Then he led an assault on Jerusalem to throw the idolators out. And what he did he do after the second victory? He ran out to a cave in the wilderness and wept and moaned about YHVH had abandoned him. To which anyone who is paying attention might ask, WTF??
Elijah's depression demonstrated a profound psychological truth, according to my father: after you have a peak experience, you're going to end up in a valley. It's part of the natural and normal cycling process of the human emotional pattern. Enjoy the high while you're on it, but don't freak out when you experience the compensatory/complementary slide down the other side of that peak. My previous two entries were the skid marks of me sliding down from the peak into the valley.
Pantheacon was a significant high for me. I haven't told anywhere near all of the significant stuff that happened, especially in the area of spiritual initiations. When I got back, I was immediately immersed in intensity at work, which continued to keep me "up" -- even if I was stressed. But my weekend was very relaxing, and today was "business as usual" at the office: in other words, time for the crash.
It's no wonder I've been grieving, over-sensitive, frustrated, and irritable all day today.
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Date: 2008-02-26 06:39 am (UTC)It's probably that idealism of mine rearing it's unrealistic head.
I wanta believe constant bliss or at least being on the plus side of the emotional spectrum at 90 percent (or more) of the time is possible.
Why? Cause that's what I want. :)
Greedy, I know.
Or else, at least I hope I can find a way to enjoy not being on the plus side.
Does that make sense?
Anyhoo, I hope you feel some riches soon. :)