Class Outline

[qos]

When I cancelled my get-together with _storyteller_, I committed to finally getting my initial outline for my Pantheacon class written out and sent to him. After battling both the ongoing illness and my own avoidance fears, I finally did finish the outline and send it.

The insecure part of me looked at the outline and said, "But there's nothing there!"

The grown-up part of me replied, "It needs some fleshing out and development - yes, but there's more there than most people could come up with!"

Insecure Self is, of course, sure that there are actually a lot of people who could cover the same material effectively. Grown-up Self replies, "Perhaps, but I am the one with the invitation to teach in this venue, so it doesn't really matter what anyone else could or would do. It's my class, and I'll cover the topics I want to in the way I see fit." Since then, Insecure Self has been lying low.


Now I get to do the same thing for my book proposal -- which is an even bigger task. But I remind myself that I've written two well-received theses, and this is exactly the same process, with the same need to take it one step at a time and keep moving forward, even if each step is small. Trying to do it all at once will only result in paralysis.

Comments

[blessed-harlot.livejournal.com]

Such wonderful self-care and self-parenting. And an inspiration for me, thank you.

[qos.livejournal.com]

*hugs
Thank you.

I was just trying to be equally affirming in a comment in your journal, but the meds are getting in the way of coherence.

[athenian-abroad.livejournal.com]

Congrats on the class outline! I persist in my view that this will turn out to be a more important life event than you may yet guess.

[oakmouse]

Good for grown-up self. *g*

If you need any help on the book proposal, you know you've got it.

[coen.livejournal.com]

Hooray for the grown up self.

[qos.livejournal.com]

I continue to be both gratified and slightly bemused by your conviction about this. I hope you're right!

BTW: Any chance of a get-together sometime before springtime?

[labelleizzy.livejournal.com]

Grown-up Self replies, "Perhaps, but I am the one with the invitation to teach in this venue, so it doesn't really matter what anyone else could or would do. It's my class, and I'll cover the topics I want to in the way I see fit."

Thanks for this quote.

I've been needing to hear this very thing, and to internalize and really grok it.