Monday, pt 1

[qos]

I felt okay most of yesterday, then crashed just before our late dinner. _storyteller_ and my daughter had made pasta and grilled chicken, and as we arrived at the dinner table (not always used) I saw the mug Lohain had used at our last meal. I picked it up and moved it into the kitchen and broke down in tears again. And then I broke down in tears during Babylon-5 when Delenn speaks to Sheridan of "we are the universe made manifest" and "we are starstuff." And then I broke down again and cried for a very long time.

Comments

[pityshesawhore.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I don't know what to say.

If you just need someone to vent to, though, you can reach me at girluncorrupted@hotmail.com.

x

[queenofhalves]

i'm glad you're taking the time to really be with your feelings. it's important.

[qos.livejournal.com]

I guess I know that many people try to deny or put a tight lid on their feelings -- but I can't imagine doing so right now. I have no desire to make a scene at work or the grocery store, but I'm not going to hold back the tears in private or with close friends, or try to will my pain away, or pretend it doesn't matter that he's gone.

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, my friend.