Spirituality

[qos]

It's been forever since I've written anything about my spiritual life, or anything but everyday work and home issues. My life is full and happy right now, and my spirituality more quiet and hands-on, less seeking and intellectual than it has been for most of my life. But I miss writing about it and connecting with my friends here on that level.

There's also a growing element that's related to my sexuality -- which is something I've yearned for for a long time -- but I'm so much in the midst of experiencing and exploring it I'm not doing a lot of thinking about it yet. And there's so much intimacy involved that I haven't even begun to reflect on what can be shared in this forum, even filtered.

Then again: this "lack of thinking" and "less intellectual" aspect of it could be a very good thing.

I just miss talking about it with my friends here. And I feel like my journal is a less interesting and vital place than it used to be.

Comments

[9thmoon.livejournal.com]

Your icon reminds me of Krull:

"I take fire from water. I give it only to the man whom I choose as my husband. Take the fire from my hand!"

I, for one, am enjoying reading about your happy life. You seem fulfilled and blissful and who cares if it isn't edgy?

Thinking of you

[vsmallgoddess.livejournal.com]

I can certainly relate to this post. I've missed being online and I've been missing you specifically; the two thoughts were unsurprisingly related. So hard to know what (or if) to share. I've been on a personal quest for some semblance of quiet normalcy, but as long as I'm in this body I'll give any person who's met me three guesses as to how likely that shall ever become. But I'm not bitter or angry and to the point I miss our talks immensely. Sending you and yours all my love during this most spiritual time of year. --P.

[professor-mom.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel. I haven't really posted much lately and I'd like to, but I don't want to post the every day or the mundane. And that which isn't--I'm not sure how well others will relate to it, so I sometimes confine it to specific forums.

In the past I've enjoyed reading how the spiritual and sexual meet in your life.

I do find your every day posts interesting, but what really interests me about you is your spiritual work, including your spiritual direction career. Keep me posted as the time permits.

[qos.livejournal.com]

Can you believe I've never seen Krull?!?

Thanks for the affirmation about enjoying my journal.

When I first started on LJ, I was going to seminary. My spirituality posts weren't particularly edgy, but there was a great deal of thought and soul behind them, and lots of questions. I had some great conversations with other people here on spirituality in various forms. I'm still enjoying the conversations, but missing the depth.

Re: Thinking of you

[qos.livejournal.com]

It's always lovely to hear from you, P.
I'm sorry we don't get to talk more often.

Life is a little too peaceful and normal for me these days, even though there's a lot of joy and contentment. Our mutual friends are starting to introduce me to Mage, which has some exciting possibilities for livening things up, internally as well as externally, and I'm getting close and closer to shaking up my professional life. I'm striving for both 'extrordinary' and 'stable.' We'll see how I do.

*hugs to you, and peace always

[qos.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the feedback, my friend.

I don't mind sharing about the sexuality and spirituality mix, but since my partners are also on my friends list, and there are friends who know us all offline, sharing feels more problematic than in the past when it was all theoretical or memories.

Still, they are open to having me share. I just need to a) take more time for reflection, and b) find the mutually-comfortable boundaries of disclosure.

My best to you and yours.

[queenofhalves]

soon we will speak in person!