Another One Right Between the Eyes
Mar. 12th, 2006 02:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosYou all know that I have troubles with water -- literal water that seeps into my house at all the wrong times and places, and metaphorical, elemental Water that represents the intuitive, the psychic, the unconscious. On the elemental wheel, Swords/Air are directly across from Cups/Water -- and that's the way I've felt all my life. Although I'm genuinely intuitive, I've frequently distrusted and often feared that part of myself.
And the fact that my sister is as intensely Water as I am Air makes it even more complicated.
So here I was this afternoon, minding my own business in the most fundamental sense -- that is, writing in my journal, addressing a series of questions that were suggested by a book I'm working with -- when a list of goals for the year suddenly took a turn, and I started listing them with their elemental associations.
Next to "begin practicing as a spiritual director" I put Pentacles (since this is about business, and finances). But I came back a few minutes later, realizing that there was something missing. Water.
To truly become a spiritual director, I am going to have to become a Queen of Cups: to fully embrace my relationship with intution, with the deep places of the psyche, with diving deep, and doing so as a companion and guide to others. I'll still need my rationality and my discernment, yes -- but unless I can be fully open to my own Water, I'll fall short, and not be able to move with my clients where they need me to go.
I have to become a Queen of Cups, or this isn't going to work.
Excuse me now while I go sit in a corner for a very long time and come to terms with this. . .
And the fact that my sister is as intensely Water as I am Air makes it even more complicated.
So here I was this afternoon, minding my own business in the most fundamental sense -- that is, writing in my journal, addressing a series of questions that were suggested by a book I'm working with -- when a list of goals for the year suddenly took a turn, and I started listing them with their elemental associations.
Next to "begin practicing as a spiritual director" I put Pentacles (since this is about business, and finances). But I came back a few minutes later, realizing that there was something missing. Water.
To truly become a spiritual director, I am going to have to become a Queen of Cups: to fully embrace my relationship with intution, with the deep places of the psyche, with diving deep, and doing so as a companion and guide to others. I'll still need my rationality and my discernment, yes -- but unless I can be fully open to my own Water, I'll fall short, and not be able to move with my clients where they need me to go.
I have to become a Queen of Cups, or this isn't going to work.
Excuse me now while I go sit in a corner for a very long time and come to terms with this. . .
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Date: 2006-03-13 01:24 pm (UTC)So really, you shouldn't feel at odds... you've been living very much in harmony with water since the day you were born.
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Date: 2006-03-13 03:17 pm (UTC)That's a marvelous observation!
I'll have to keep that in mind.