Sensual Fun

Instead of putting a bridal topper on the cake, they're putting the topping on the bride.

( No real nudity, but potentially NSW. )

Neither Jackie Nor Marilyn

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You Are an Ingrid!

You are an Ingrid -- "I am unique"

Ingrids have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

• * Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.


• * Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.


• * Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.


• * Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.


• * Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being an Ingrid

• * my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level


• * my ability to establish warm connections with people


• * admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life


• * my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor


• * being unique and being seen as unique by others


• * having aesthetic sensibilities


• * being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being an Ingrid

• * experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair


• * feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved


• * feeling guilty when I disappoint people


• * feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me


• * expecting too much from myself and life


• * fearing being abandoned


• * obsessing over resentments


• * longing for what I don't have

Ingrids as Children Often

• * have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games


• * are very sensitive


• * feel that they don't fit in


• * believe they are missing something that other people have


• * attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.


• * become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood


• * feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

Ingrids as Parents

• * help their children become who they really are


• * support their children's creativity and originality


• * are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings


• * are sometimes overly critical or overly protective


• * are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

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Identity Issues

While contemplating a couple of projects that are important to me, I suddenly realized that if either of them make it to fruition, they will be presented to the public under names other than the legal name by which I am known in my daily life.

That stopped me cold.

What does it mean that a significant portion (although by no means all) of the work that is closet to my heart feels like something from which I need to distance myself? Not because of shame, but because the voices that rise up inside me insist that there would be unpleasant consequences otherwise.

One of those projects involves erotic writing, and there are issues there that touch the privacy of more than one former partner. But the other project, which involves my work as an underworld priestess, doesn't have those types of constraints. Although yes, there are sexual elements there as well. The underworld path has a great deal to do with sex and death, two loaded and usually unpopular topics for "polite society."

I know the other names which I would put on these projects, alternate names. . . Names that are feeling more and more like my real self than the name which I have carried for more than forty years.


I think that I've mentioned recently that I've been doing a lot of journaling to deal with inner obstacles to my goals that have been powerful but indistinct. I think journaling on this topic will be helpful as well. Those internal voices that are so worried about my reputation -- professional and otherwise -- probably need to be engaged directly, and their fears dealt with head-on. I've been deferring to those fears all my life, accepting that they know better than I do about how to be successful in society. I should stop giving them that power.

Once Again, My Roots Are Showing

This is directly related to the post I just made about pseudonyms (although interestingly enough, that word never appears in that post).

I was talking with my dad the other day, and he observed -- with clear relief -- that Wolfling "No longer seems quite as set on 'being different'" as she has in the last couple of years.

The specifics of this include: not doing a lot of body art with colored pens, especially lots of runic writing on her arms; and not wearing t-shirts with 'weird' things on them (like a funny little monster that says "Changeling"), and etc.

It took a day or so for my father's palpable relief to really sink in with me, and I felt a sad sense of confirmation of all the thoughts I've had over the past couple of years that more than anything else my parents wanted me to fit in, to conform to expectations, to be agreeable. I don't think they understood that they were inhibiting my chances of being exceptional and being recognized in a positive way for it. To them, success was possible only if one kept carefully within the boundaries and didn't make other people uncomfortable.

They had no idea that some of my core strengths were going to be things like thinking outside the box, asking good questions, and being creative -- all things that required getting out of step, crossing the lines, being different.

I am trying so very hard to encourage Wolfling to be herself, whatever that involves -- while being a courteous, thoughtful person. I want her to be empathetic, but not take responsibility for making sure everyone around her is comfortable with her all the time. I don't want her to hide her light under a bushel because someone else might feel intimidated by her.

I need to keep a buffer between her and her grandparents in this area.

And I need to continue to work on separating myself from their concerned, conservative voices in my head.