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Buckling Down Again
Feb. 23rd, 2009 11:06 amAs I was getting ready for work this morning, I felt drawn to put on the chain necklace that was the first tangible symbol of my commitment to Ereshkigal. Since my initiation last summer I’ve been tending to wear the bead necklace I made when I want to feel more connected with Her, but every so often it’s the chain that feels right.
It was only a little while ago, during a quick coffee break, that I realized there was a message in the impulse: that I’m on the edge of being in trouble with Herself.
The last three weeks have been rather chaotic for numerous reasons, first leading up to Pantheacon, then in the aftermath, including the amazing experiences I’ve been having emerging from grieving and reclaiming my erotic nature. And She has been patient with that.
Up until now. I’ve been given notice that I’ve used up my slack time, and it’s time to regain my focus, concentrate on my practices, and get back into a routine of Doing The Work. A lot of what I’ve been doing these past few weeks has been part of my Work – but it’s not the same thing as maintaining my daily practices and fundamental disciplines.
It was the routine of daily practice that got me to the place where the amazing events of the past few weeks were possible. It is daily practice that will allow me to fully integrate those events and continue to move forward. The peak experiences are real and wonderful and important – but they don’t substitute for the daily work.
It was only a little while ago, during a quick coffee break, that I realized there was a message in the impulse: that I’m on the edge of being in trouble with Herself.
The last three weeks have been rather chaotic for numerous reasons, first leading up to Pantheacon, then in the aftermath, including the amazing experiences I’ve been having emerging from grieving and reclaiming my erotic nature. And She has been patient with that.
Up until now. I’ve been given notice that I’ve used up my slack time, and it’s time to regain my focus, concentrate on my practices, and get back into a routine of Doing The Work. A lot of what I’ve been doing these past few weeks has been part of my Work – but it’s not the same thing as maintaining my daily practices and fundamental disciplines.
It was the routine of daily practice that got me to the place where the amazing events of the past few weeks were possible. It is daily practice that will allow me to fully integrate those events and continue to move forward. The peak experiences are real and wonderful and important – but they don’t substitute for the daily work.
