Dissolution

_storyteller_ and I are no longer romantic partners.

On Sunday night we had the most gentle and amicable Talk that I've ever had, and the resolution was that we agreed to find a new form of relationship to express the caring we have for each other. We're not quite sure what the name of that relationship is, but it is no longer the one we've had for the past year.

Of course, if that relationship had still been what it once was, the Talk would not have taken place. As in many cases, it was not a "decision" as much as an acknowledgement of what was already happening.

Part of me wants to try to explain, because I am certain that only those closest to us had any idea this was even a possibility. I want to describe what factors were involved, and why, but I'm not going to. The simplest explanation does neither of us justice, and the complex one. . . well, that's not going to happen.

Does it hurt? Terribly.
Going from having an intense three-way partnership to having no partner at all, in the space of less than three weeks, is bloody awful. I ache for the loss of what _storyteller_ and I once shared. I ache for the part I played in its passing. And I ache for the fact that uncrowned_king is no longer here to support and advise and comfort us both.


I hurt like hell. . . but I do not regret one precious, gorgeous, joyous moment of it.