Jun. 2nd, 2007

LJ

Jun. 2nd, 2007 12:11 am
qos: (Sabrina in Tree)
I have more to share, but LJ has eaten two substantive posts today and won't allow me to upload a new icon.

Thanks

Jun. 2nd, 2007 12:13 am
qos: (Sabrina in Tree)



Because of my intermittant LJ connection, I have not yet been able to respond to each comment left yesterday.

However, all of them -- from old friends and near-strangers, from friends of a variety of faiths -- have made me feel loved and supported, and I am grateful.

I am blessed in this community. Thank you for being with me during this terrible, painful time.

Damn

Jun. 2nd, 2007 12:27 am
qos: (Tracy Lord Drunk)
LJ is finally accepting my posts, but I'm too tired and tipsy to re-write any of the important things the system ate this morning and earlier this evening.

I should go to bed, but it seems like an empty, cold, and lonely place right now.

I want to drink some more, to guarantee I'll go to sleep quickly, but I'm afraid I'll get sick if I do.

Test

Jun. 2nd, 2007 10:45 am
qos: (Grumpy)
Short post.
Will it go up?

Grrrrrr!!!

Jun. 2nd, 2007 10:46 am
qos: (Grumpy)
This is maddening!
Every time I try to make a post of more than a couple of lines, I get an internet error.

ETA Or maybe its because I'm trying to upload an image from my computer embedded in the entry -- because LJ also breaks when I try to upload userpics.

ETA Okay. Time to give Photobucket a try.

Damn It

Jun. 2nd, 2007 11:06 am
qos: (Grumpy)
I managed to get the image of Arwen mourning up to Photobucket and into my userpics, but I can't post the Morrigan poem I found last night. I can't post any damn thing of substance.

Fine.

Jun. 2nd, 2007 11:17 am
qos: (KB Out of the Box)
If I can't post anything worth reading about what's going on in my heart and soul, I'll stop wasting time beating my head against the electronic wall and do something constructive: centering and re-aligning my energy by cleaning my house.
qos: (Arwen Mourning)
[livejournal.com profile] _storyteller_ went out with my daughter and I this afternoon to run a couple of errands. We're each dealing with Lohain's death in our own way, and we're both still in shock and dealing with his loss on many levels. For myself, my initial storms of weeping are over, leaving me numb, pseudo-normal.

I almost started crying when, during the drive home, the only thing I could think of to talk about was the weather. Then I realized that neither of us is "normal" or "okay" right now.

For the time being, I have to be okay with the fact that we are not okay.
It's part of the process.
But it hurts.
qos: (Light)
This afternoon I did a reading on the question "Where do we go from here?"

The card I pulled was the 5 of Cups. In this deck, the card shows Pan and a crescent crowned woman in the foreground next to a stream, and a ghostly stag leaping in the background. Immediately I thought of [livejournal.com profile] _storyteller_ and myself, with Lohain's spirit in the background -- present, but not part of the interaction between the other two.

Traditionally, 5-Cups shows a mourning figure with three spilled cups before him and two filled cups behind. It's a warning to not allow grief and loss, however real and intense, to blind you to what you still have.

It is a lesson I intend to take to heart.
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