Jun. 2nd, 2007
Because of my intermittant LJ connection, I have not yet been able to respond to each comment left yesterday.
However, all of them -- from old friends and near-strangers, from friends of a variety of faiths -- have made me feel loved and supported, and I am grateful.
I am blessed in this community. Thank you for being with me during this terrible, painful time.
LJ is finally accepting my posts, but I'm too tired and tipsy to re-write any of the important things the system ate this morning and earlier this evening.
I should go to bed, but it seems like an empty, cold, and lonely place right now.
I want to drink some more, to guarantee I'll go to sleep quickly, but I'm afraid I'll get sick if I do.
I should go to bed, but it seems like an empty, cold, and lonely place right now.
I want to drink some more, to guarantee I'll go to sleep quickly, but I'm afraid I'll get sick if I do.
Being Okay With Not Being Okay
Jun. 2nd, 2007 04:26 pm![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
I almost started crying when, during the drive home, the only thing I could think of to talk about was the weather. Then I realized that neither of us is "normal" or "okay" right now.
For the time being, I have to be okay with the fact that we are not okay.
It's part of the process.
But it hurts.
Oracle: 5 of Cups
Jun. 2nd, 2007 07:28 pmThis afternoon I did a reading on the question "Where do we go from here?"
The card I pulled was the 5 of Cups. In this deck, the card shows Pan and a crescent crowned woman in the foreground next to a stream, and a ghostly stag leaping in the background. Immediately I thought of
_storyteller_ and myself, with Lohain's spirit in the background -- present, but not part of the interaction between the other two.
Traditionally, 5-Cups shows a mourning figure with three spilled cups before him and two filled cups behind. It's a warning to not allow grief and loss, however real and intense, to blind you to what you still have.
It is a lesson I intend to take to heart.
The card I pulled was the 5 of Cups. In this deck, the card shows Pan and a crescent crowned woman in the foreground next to a stream, and a ghostly stag leaping in the background. Immediately I thought of
![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
Traditionally, 5-Cups shows a mourning figure with three spilled cups before him and two filled cups behind. It's a warning to not allow grief and loss, however real and intense, to blind you to what you still have.
It is a lesson I intend to take to heart.