Monday Morning

Yesterday slowly got better. As I wrote earlier, my daughter and I went to see "The Incredibles" in the late afternoon, and that was fun. Imagine, if you can,The Fantastic Four, James Bond, and Spy Kids, all smashed together and then squeezed out through Pixar animation. It was fast-paced, witty, and even suspenseful in parts. Edna, designer to superheroes, was the best part. See the movie for her, if nothing else.

After the movie, we came home, I put a roast in the oven, and The Child and I continued our game of Star Wars Monopoly. She's a Capricorn, and has the most amazing luck in games involving money! We were playing the version in which each player receives three properties free at the beginning, dealt randomly. I ended up with both Coruscant properties (equivalent to Boardwark and Park Place) and immediately put starports on them. She's landed on them once in some four hours of play.

There's a big, long meeting of my department at work today, but I'm looking forward to it because it's going to be about strategy and priorities for the coming year, and I like getting big-picture perspective on things. And I like spending time with my boss.

Then I have Hebrew Scriptures class tonight, which does not thrill me, but I'm trying to muster some enthusiasm because if I stop finding things to appreciate my mental state is not going to get much better.

I had lots of dreams about work last night: not "bad" dreams, but clearly my subconscious was working through a lot of "stuff." I feel mostly rested this morning, and am hopeful that with Jeannie back in the office again it will help keep my spirits up. Having her back and the big meeting this afternoon means that it will help keep Miss V at bay.

Now if I can only get the second issue of the newsletter wrapped.

That's probably one of the biggest sources of stress right now. I had hoped to have the new material to the creative agency today, but I still don't have an article from one of my usually most reliable people (she got promoted two weeks ago, which didn't help her time schedule), and I haven't finished edited what I received from the others, some of which were late. Vicki's boss has forbidden us to publish anything of substance about one of our centers that was supposed to be one of our features, which makes me mad. Anyway. . . I'm getting stressed just thinking about it. Got to get it wrapped and handed off --- and stop stressing about it anyway. But after the insane success of the first issue I'm feeling serious performance anxiety -- and the vagaries of those who are also involved is driving me nuts.

Oh, Gawd. . . .

And when I push it to "40" (which will happen in about four weeks) the "older" percentage declines to 2%.

Does this make me a LiveJournal Crone???

My age

39 How old are other lj users are compared to me:

Younger My age Older 97% 0% 3%

There are 4046 lj users the same age as me.

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Feeling Better

Thank you, Everyone, for your good wishes, prayers, and whatever other positive energy you sent my way.

I was driving to work this morning, and it suddenly occurred to me (perhaps prompted by a song, but I can't remember which one) that the things I've been wrestling with these last few days -- meaning, significance, mortality, etc. -- are all inescapable "problems" of the human condition. There is nothing "wrong" in my life; the things I'm dealing with are things everyone has to deal with. In a strange way, that realization made me feel better. I could actually feel a 'click' as the gears inside my head shifted back into my normal, optimistic mode.

And I remember these lovely words uttered by Marcus on Babylon-5:

Wouldn't it be much worse if life were fair, and all the terrible things that happen to us come because we actually deserve them? So now I take great comfort in the general hostility and unfairness and of the universe.

I don't really think the universe is "hostile" -- but I'm with Marcus in that I take comfort in the thought that it's not "fair."


Love to all, and my thanks, again, for your support these last few days.