Jun. 13th, 2004

qos: (Playing with Stars)
Via [livejournal.com profile] nixnivis

How to make a qos
Ingredients:

3 parts friendliness

1 part ambition

5 parts mystery
Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of curiosity and a pinch of salt. Yum!


Username:


Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com


What's strange is that the third element of the blend originally was "5 parts" with nothing following it. So I added "mystery," which seemed appropriate to the apparent glitch in the meme-generator.

Pride

Jun. 13th, 2004 06:22 pm
qos: (Catherine Crowned)
I was up until 2:30am gaming Saturday night, and my two hour nap this afternoon did not significantly enhance my mental acuity. I'm going to try to keep this coherent.

There is a young man named Diego in one of my Ex's gaming groups. I find him interesting, largely because of the obvious sharpness of his mind. I also find him somewhat irritating, because he knows he's brilliant and very well read, and he has a habit of supplying information to others in a way that I find condescending. He doesn't usually ask if someone knows something, he just supplies the data he thinks they need.

I am acutely aware that both Diego and Miss Vicki are rubbing my fur the wrong way because of my pride. I feel that neither of them are treating me with the respect I deserve, are not acknowledging my own talents, skill and knowledge. Both give me the feeling that they think I should be grateful for their guidance and instruction.

Neither have the slightest awareness that I am used to being the person to whom others come for advice, information, and guidance. I seldom hesitate to ask for advice, information or guidance when I need it, and I (usually) appreciate it when it is offered in response to a specific situation in which I clearly need it -- but with these two it's a much more general, habitual thing.

They both set my teeth on edge -- although I do have more respect for Diego's intellectual gifts and education than Vicki's stature as a professional admin, which seems to be the basis for her sense of superiority.

And I'm beginning to get the uneasy feeling that I'm over-reacting to these two. Am I allowing my pride to be offended far too easily? I'm aware that I've let Miss Vicki become something of a personal nemesis, allowing the situation between us to become an ongoing drama, and I should probably just stop feeding it energy, stop talking about it and thinking about it, just deal with her as calmly and with as much detachment as possible. Especially now that my temp status is in the past and we've become peers.

I've always tried to guard against pride. Self respect is good. There are degrees of pride that are good and appropriate. I try very hard to show respect to others, partially because I consider it essential good manners and partially because I want to be sure to keep my own weakness in check. Is my reaction to these two justified in light of their poor behavior, or is it a warning sign pointing out my own arrogance, and a suggestion from the Universe that I should deal with the log in my own eye?
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