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Well, I didn't accomplish nearly as much as I wanted to this weekend - but I did get a long rest, which I desperately needed. Unfortunately, I was awake at 4:00 this morning, and haven't been back to sleep since. Or not so unfortunately, because I've been using the time to work on my paper.
I start training my replacement at work today, which does not put me in a cheery mood. It's not just that I am not thrilled about her getting my job, it's that I feel so many demands for my time and energy, having to devote two solid days to getting someone else oriented feels like a huge sap on my mental and emotional energy. When I'm stressed out, I pull inward, and I put as much space as possible between myself and (most) other people. But for the next two work days, I'm going to be continuously engaged with the new admin - all the while aware of what is now my own work downstairs not getting done.
In addition to having to finish the paper by Thursday night, I have to read another hundred sections of Swedenborg (not easy reading), and write an appropriately thoughtful response to post by 11am Wednesday. I have a meeting with a pastor right after work, and my Women In Transition group meets tonight. (I probably won't attend.) Then there's the reading I still haven't done for this weekend's class.
On the bright side, the inner work is going well. No new cryptic utterances to share this morning, just the recent experience of some new, more vivid, personal writing, and a sense of getting back in touch with, and more conscious about, integrating and manifesting my inner strengths and passions. Which is a very good feeling.
Must run now. They will be expecting me at work.
I start training my replacement at work today, which does not put me in a cheery mood. It's not just that I am not thrilled about her getting my job, it's that I feel so many demands for my time and energy, having to devote two solid days to getting someone else oriented feels like a huge sap on my mental and emotional energy. When I'm stressed out, I pull inward, and I put as much space as possible between myself and (most) other people. But for the next two work days, I'm going to be continuously engaged with the new admin - all the while aware of what is now my own work downstairs not getting done.
In addition to having to finish the paper by Thursday night, I have to read another hundred sections of Swedenborg (not easy reading), and write an appropriately thoughtful response to post by 11am Wednesday. I have a meeting with a pastor right after work, and my Women In Transition group meets tonight. (I probably won't attend.) Then there's the reading I still haven't done for this weekend's class.
On the bright side, the inner work is going well. No new cryptic utterances to share this morning, just the recent experience of some new, more vivid, personal writing, and a sense of getting back in touch with, and more conscious about, integrating and manifesting my inner strengths and passions. Which is a very good feeling.
Must run now. They will be expecting me at work.
