Now for Some Substance
Mar. 3rd, 2005 07:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosIt was a really good day at work. Better, in fact, than I've had in quite a while.
I spent most of my time on my own terms, cleaning up my desk and working on my own projects, talking with people (as an admin, I can claim a certain degree of socializing is "work" because a big part of my job is to be connected to people and promote positive morale and network building -- really!), and working with the Comms Manager as an equal rather than a delegate-work-to person. I ended the day feeling cheerful and peaceful instead of stressed and upset.
I did work late, but then took myself out to dinner at The Outback with one of the two $25 gift certificates the VP gave me during the road trip. While there, I did some quality journaling, further contributing to my good mood. I had a significant breakthrough in the area of finances, finally really understanding that if I reduce my expenditures I increase my freedom from the corporate world. The less money I need to maintain the "optional" aspects of my lifestyle, the more freedom I have to choose how I earn the money I do need.
I've never been a person for self-denial. I am motivated primarily by passion. (Which is one of the reasons losing my passion has been so awful these last few years -- that lack has virtually eliminated my enthusiasm for doing things.) I am, however, passionate about my freedom. So instead of thinking about self-discipline, self-denial, and the rather abstract "security" represented by large numbers in my bank book, it's entirely likely that by focusing on achieving greater freedom I will be much more inclined to control and limit my discretionary spending.
Of course, being who I am, the first thing I thought about after that was going on eBay and buying a photo of Mel Gibson painted with woad in Braveheart -- then I laughed at myself and reminded myself that that's why Google has an "image search" function and I have a printer.
I spent most of my time on my own terms, cleaning up my desk and working on my own projects, talking with people (as an admin, I can claim a certain degree of socializing is "work" because a big part of my job is to be connected to people and promote positive morale and network building -- really!), and working with the Comms Manager as an equal rather than a delegate-work-to person. I ended the day feeling cheerful and peaceful instead of stressed and upset.
I did work late, but then took myself out to dinner at The Outback with one of the two $25 gift certificates the VP gave me during the road trip. While there, I did some quality journaling, further contributing to my good mood. I had a significant breakthrough in the area of finances, finally really understanding that if I reduce my expenditures I increase my freedom from the corporate world. The less money I need to maintain the "optional" aspects of my lifestyle, the more freedom I have to choose how I earn the money I do need.
I've never been a person for self-denial. I am motivated primarily by passion. (Which is one of the reasons losing my passion has been so awful these last few years -- that lack has virtually eliminated my enthusiasm for doing things.) I am, however, passionate about my freedom. So instead of thinking about self-discipline, self-denial, and the rather abstract "security" represented by large numbers in my bank book, it's entirely likely that by focusing on achieving greater freedom I will be much more inclined to control and limit my discretionary spending.
Of course, being who I am, the first thing I thought about after that was going on eBay and buying a photo of Mel Gibson painted with woad in Braveheart -- then I laughed at myself and reminded myself that that's why Google has an "image search" function and I have a printer.
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
(no subject)
Date: 2005-03-04 04:23 am (UTC)