Facing and Overcoming Obstacles
Aug. 7th, 2009 10:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qosThe path is kind of strange right now. . . On the one hand, I feel like I'm just sitting still -- and I am in several key areas. But I'm also aware of making progress in other areas, the kind of progress that manifests in sudden shifts of insight. Maybe it's as if I'm not going forward but I am going deeper. The trick is to be sure I'm actually achieving depth, not just sinking into the muck of intertia. And of course it's not an either/or. The path has many levels.
I have a real problem with avoidance. It's as if I simply stop seeing certain tasks and challenges. A few months ago I was addressing that with dedicated attention to a couple of lists: my practice log, my goal list for my practice. Now I don't even see those documents anymore.
To try to overcome this, I'm working on a discipline of stopping to acknowledge that I'm getting caught up in an obstacle rather than actually working toward a goal. If I feel resistance or avoidance, I need to stop and really see what I'm scaring myself with.
LM, warrior that he is, has been helping me with this, urging me to fully face the obstacles and grapple with them, using the appropriate "weapons" to battle with each. Not pursuing my goals because I'm hiding from shadow-fears is not going to get me where I want to be.
I have a real problem with avoidance. It's as if I simply stop seeing certain tasks and challenges. A few months ago I was addressing that with dedicated attention to a couple of lists: my practice log, my goal list for my practice. Now I don't even see those documents anymore.
To try to overcome this, I'm working on a discipline of stopping to acknowledge that I'm getting caught up in an obstacle rather than actually working toward a goal. If I feel resistance or avoidance, I need to stop and really see what I'm scaring myself with.
LM, warrior that he is, has been helping me with this, urging me to fully face the obstacles and grapple with them, using the appropriate "weapons" to battle with each. Not pursuing my goals because I'm hiding from shadow-fears is not going to get me where I want to be.
